disturbed
it rings in my head
the words that you said
are them meant to be hate?

haunted
the emotions from you
what were they trying to do?
to stab, to wound
or to kill?

mess
such a mess
like a tangled web
just that it isn't as fragile
just that it is made from chains

pain
what pain?
hollow is my calling,
numbness is my middle name.

insensitivity
bears its fruit on your tree
who is there to destroy it?
you?
or me?

selfishness
is perched on your window
lingering like there's no tomorrow.
hanging onto you,
clinging tightly.
adding to your sins.

what tomorrow?
there was never a tomorrow.
just like a doll,
you were taught to follow.
same old rountine,
day and night,
same old thoughts,
run through your mind.

can't stand,
i am too weak.
can't sleep,
its haunting me.
can't feel,
the numbness override.
can't hope,
the faith has disappeared.

what am i?
what am i?
what am i?
someone tell me what am i?
someone.. just save me..

I HATE YOU
YOU WHO MADE ME LIVED LIKE THIS FOR 16YEARS

man my body's aching all over
had a house/hiphop session at youthpark on friday by Ja1.
he's really good! i was so impressed.
i really like house dance, might want to try it next time in life.
oh yeah can't wait for the coming class at Serangoon CC
taught by Ja1 too!
props to Korea-Singapore Dance Project for planning this!

oh yeah, where the hell did my tagboard go to?! :(

last day online
end of my CYBERFREAK escapade
i will miss going online. that i definitely know.
my online tv, youtube.
and of course countless free manga downloads available online.
sad i know.

oh yeah props to paul twohill and jonathan leong for tonight's S.I performance.
they did great :)

oh hi
dance with randolf winston today was great!
my tighs and butt are aching like crazy
i wish shane sparks would come here though
it will be a dream come true if he ever did fly to Singapore to teach people like me hiphop
oh well i'll settle for randolf for now.
amazing people
extraodinary beings
randolf and derek that is

oh i have decided for the whole of June
I, Samantha Lee will not step into the cyberworld
time to prioritise!
so PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO BOTHERS TO READ MY BLOG
contact me by my mobile.

my legs are giving way for the MT Olevel
goodness and i am like so WELL-PREPPED for it
god bless samantha.
thank you! (if you did that is)

i have a stomache
it is a really bad one
but it does not want to be defaecated
what can i do?
help?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what a bummer
the exams are here and i am mugging like crazy
well, i am partly at fault for not doing revision beforehand
but today's biology paper was a killer!
oh my gosh mr rashidin!! why are you killing us!?
what makes it even more dreadful is that i am having the time of the month
after so long i finally experience the pain of cramps again
horrifying indeed.

i do not know what to believe anymore
who to trust
where to head
seriously, i do not know the meaning of existence anymore
is it possible to relive the good old memories?
no
people change
and so do i
perhaps i am more suitable to be alone.
i bet you think so
i bet you think i am annyoying
full of shit
such a self-centered bitch, slut,whore
whatever rubbish things you can say about girls
you relate them to me.
perhaps i am
but have you ever thought how i feel?
no
you only live in your small little world
that is what i dislike about humans
they tend to forget the soon-to-be-invisible support next to them
all hail new pillars for them to depend on

i always thought this world is beautiful
until my third eye opened
and i saw the realities of life
humans are scarred with errs
world filled with disasters, attacks etc.
i do not want to be like them
i want to fight it
hah.
too bad for you, who thinks i will fall

my mother reckons i need to buy a T-shirt that states
I AM HAVING MY PERIOD
what a clever idea