curiosity killed the cat
as it tries to investigate the rat
oh it didn't know it'll feel like that
a slow and painful death.

just a few moment before it's death
it tried hard to call for help,
but regret came crashing instead.
"Why didn't you make a move then?"
it said.
following with "And now he's gone, it's too late.".
dwelling with the rush of thoughts.
the cat forgot it's wound and bled to death.

who will be over there?
to grab it's paw
with love and care?
to hold it tight,
and whisper "It's alright."
and to comfort it once again?

"there's no one there.."
it whimpered.
afraid of being hurt again.
the strangers rush by endlessly,
with not a familar face in sight.
tormented by reality,
it stood hiding at the corner in Heaven's land.
paradise, it was not.
and it hides like a tortoise in its shell,
never to surface again.

it's too late. things will never be the same again. what my true feelings are, i finally understand them today.

hey guys
bad news
my keyboard is deteoriorating
the number of keys still working are decreasing day by day
using an on-screen keyboard now
pathetic - i know
well i will not be talking much
my arm and fingers are aching
i reckon i will have pretty strong arms by the time my computer is repaired
ciao

collarbones are hot

disturbed
it rings in my head
the words that you said
are them meant to be hate?

haunted
the emotions from you
what were they trying to do?
to stab, to wound
or to kill?

mess
such a mess
like a tangled web
just that it isn't as fragile
just that it is made from chains

pain
what pain?
hollow is my calling,
numbness is my middle name.

insensitivity
bears its fruit on your tree
who is there to destroy it?
you?
or me?

selfishness
is perched on your window
lingering like there's no tomorrow.
hanging onto you,
clinging tightly.
adding to your sins.

what tomorrow?
there was never a tomorrow.
just like a doll,
you were taught to follow.
same old rountine,
day and night,
same old thoughts,
run through your mind.

can't stand,
i am too weak.
can't sleep,
its haunting me.
can't feel,
the numbness override.
can't hope,
the faith has disappeared.

what am i?
what am i?
what am i?
someone tell me what am i?
someone.. just save me..

I HATE YOU
YOU WHO MADE ME LIVED LIKE THIS FOR 16YEARS

man my body's aching all over
had a house/hiphop session at youthpark on friday by Ja1.
he's really good! i was so impressed.
i really like house dance, might want to try it next time in life.
oh yeah can't wait for the coming class at Serangoon CC
taught by Ja1 too!
props to Korea-Singapore Dance Project for planning this!

oh yeah, where the hell did my tagboard go to?! :(