the smell of a new start, a new beginning,
the smell that reminds me of city skylines and skyscrapers,
the smell that brings me present memories with you.
i love the smell of paper bags,
yes, those brown little things that you get from McD's or Starbucks.
there's something inexplicable about this smell.
perhaps it was a long lost childhood memory that i have forgotten,
but it never fails to en trail me.
i love the smell of McD's washing hand soap.
i know, i know.
as weird as it seems,
it makes me feel clean.
perhaps i am really suffering from OCD.
oh well what the heck.
you know what i dream about?
a lifestyle together,
living together,
cuddles, hugs and warm kisses.
doing the laundry,
cooking for each other.
i wonder if it's still possible?
since young, i guess the 'living alone' idea has crossed my mind many a times.
the independence,
the freedom is what i have always earned for.
until i found someone that i wanna be together with my whole life.
i have asked you,
but there were many reasons why you can't.
of cos i am a little sad and disappointed.
but i have to respect your decision, like how you respected mine.
sometimes i wonder,
are we really in for it?
or am i really alone?
there are so many differences that we have always tried to compromise with.
be it religion, upbringing, friends etc.
and we're still going strong.
and i hope we stay that way,
cos i really do love you.
you may think things have changed,
or like things are different now.
but i am still the same.
Love is Patient and kind;
it does not seek to please itself, nor does it delight in evil, but is always hopeful
