y0x pE0ple~ hmM... h0w r ya? i havEn't bEen updating this thing f0r quite s0me time... but i waste this peri0d of timE for somE go0d use k? l0lxXx... i revampEd my bl0g lE.. a wh0le new layout.. nicE bah? l0lxXx.. so pink h0r... l0lxXx... hMm... so wat u guys hav bEen up t0 latEly? miSs mE mah? hahaha~ i gEttin vEry lamE these days.. pr0bably whEn i lamE h0r... i will f0rget ab0ut all my tr0ubles bah...=) blEah~ l0lxXx... hMm.. i th0ught f0r a l0ng time whEn i was on thE way h0me in my fathEr's l0rry... i saw thE stars.. thE mo0n... i dEcided... it's timE t0 lEt go bah... i let g0 bec0s i l0ve him to0 much lE... i dun wanna sh0w it t0 him lE... if hE really wan me, he will naturally c0me back t0 me de.. c0s i'll be waitin f0r him... i w0n't tell him bah... hmm.. my heartaching l0... very xin t0ng dE u knw? l0lxXx.. but God dun wan us t0 be t0gether bah.. mayb n0t now... perhaps mayb in the futurE will hav s0me h0pe.. but thEn i dunn0 whethEr i'll stilL likE him mah... i gvin mysElf 3 months to f0rget ab0ut him... very l0ng rite? haha.. first stEad with marcus to0k ab0ut 2 months bah.. so n0w i think 3 months sh0uld be adequate en0ugh... =).. haha, hE givEs me al0t of mem0ries lo... espEcially whEn i listEn t0 Qing+ian... watch thE mtv.. i dun wan t0 c u lEave first... i dun wan t0 c ur back facing mE first, s0 i think i shall lEave first bah.. bE like thE gal in the mtv l0... haha~ very lamE h0r? but mayb that's the only way i can f0rget ab0ut him bah... l0lxXx... i hEar Qing+ian h0r.. all the mem0ries flo0d back sia.. miSs him al0t.. but thEn it's timE t0 lEt g0.. lEt g0 of the happinEss which seemed t0 appear jus yEsterday... s0metimes bth lE.. will dr0p a tear or tw0 bah... n0 ch0ice... l0ve hurts..=) yet i still bElieve in l0vE... hEhehE~ i wilL remEmber him bah... left a really dEep scar insidE my hEart... alL fulL of 0ur mEm0ries... days whEre wE spEnt timE t0gethEr.. b0ttled up insidE... haixXx... -[pat]- th0ugh u say u n0 feelins f0r mE le, i still hav f0r u l0.... hMm... u say wE'll bE spEcial frEns.. but i dun think it'll happEn lo... in thE end, we'll jus bE n0rmal frEns mah.... it's always like tt de... dun feel guilty ab0ut breakin up with me lo... ur gr0wing up lE.. havin pubErty, mind vEry ficklE.. wat can i d0? i cann0t ask god to stop this w0rld from moving on & head back int0 the past whEre we were so happy t0gether... Everytime i read the chatl0g of us, i l0nged to find the past u again... but i kn0w it's nEva g0nna happen... thEre's only one u... onE & only which left this scar in mE... i dun blame u... hAix.. n0w u may n0t even gv a damn ab0ut mE lo... but i d0.. mayb feelins wilL jus fadE away bah... but the times i spEnt with u r onE of my happiEst.. c0s i hav frEed0m & l0vE... alL fr0m u... really appreciate that... th0ugh we r considEred frens n0w... i rEally h0pe we stilL can g0 out t0gether bah... u kn0w likE crap ar0und? haha.. muS ji0 mE go out k? l0lxXx.. and dun call mE stupid t0 fall in l0ve with u lE... in the first placE, u r the onE wh0 madE me l0ve u this much... =xXx... haixXx... l0lxXx... alL thE best l0, i may n0t be ur drEam gal, but i did tEll u l0tsa things.... =) hEhehE~... haix an0ther failEd relati0nship... s0mEtimes i really wish i c0uld slp f0rever & wake up t0 forget everythin.. alL the past... h0pE it'll happEn to mE... haha... i scared i g0t diabEtes leh.. these few days few so wEak like tt... haix... scared lEh... i dun wanna diE leh... l0lxXx... oh yeah, s0 lucky sia mE... w0n thE readEr digest pil0t pen competit0n.. so happy sia.... l0lxXx... n0w i really hate to be al0ne lo.. last time at lEast hav pat whEn my frens n0t ar0und, but n0w, God has taken everythin away fr0m me le... god pls bring thEm back to mE k? i dun wanna l0se them... hahahA~ b0ught tw0 cd's complimentary fr0m my dad, bEy0nce's dangErously in l0vE & thE l0ving u cd.. damn nicE sia all the s0ngs.... haha.. these few days feel like i crap al0t with ppl.. quite fun bah.. l0lxXx... well, i g2g lE.. nitE all!! l0vE ya!!

blastin' H.I.M's - Funeral of Hearts

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon
The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
He was the moon
Painting you
With it's glow so vulnerable and pale

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in
All the troubles and fears here for years tried to forget
He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
Pray to god who's deaf and blind
The last night's the soul's on fire
Three little words and a question why

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

hEy.. n0t feelin really well rite n0w.. t0day really sucked big time.. well i m like already so stressed from the exams, i couldn't concentrate... feelin really weird, like somethin has g0ne wrong... bryan started tellin me about some stuff, he confused the hell outta me, after he finished say, my boday began to shiver... i went c0ld, and my b0dy was sweating like mad, my head went blanked for a moment i sto0d up, wanting to get away, i fell onto the fl0or... at that m0ment, i saw pat's nick, about jasmine... hMm.. i duNn0 wat to say... felt really hurt, mayb he's jus using me to forget ab0ut her... i dunn0... felt really confused, plus bryan's sayin ab0ut wh0m i dunno who is he.. makes my head spin m0re... my body was raging h0t... i c0uldn't take it anym0re i broke down crying... i huddled in a corner, hugged myself & started prayin to god, tell him that i'm ok... I am ok... But the more i pray, the symptons seem to get w0rse... My head spun thoughts about bryan, pat & that shivering... i felt so darn cold..... needed to hug somethin to keep me warm desperately... talked to him, he didn't wanna tell me anythin.. saw his nick again, all those mushy nicks, were they for her? not me... mayb he nv really had feelins for me at all... i dun wanna think about anythin le... my head hurts.... my heart hurts even m0re, i dunno y i wan to put myself int0 this state, i could hav br0ke up with him & suffer n0 more.. but i can't help it, i really l0ve him... mayb i sh0uldn't bah... cos he's not treatin me as a gf either... i dunn0, really need my frens rite n0w... haix... sick.....

blastin' Avril Lavigne's - Don't tell me

You held my hand and walked me home
I know
Why You gave me that kiss it was something
like
this that made me go oh oh
You wiped my tears
Got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough
To take up some of my love
Gosh it's so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that
Girl who gives it all away e yeahoh
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to
you
this ti-e-i-i ime
Did you think that that there was something
else gonna do
And cry-y-i-y-i
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way-eyeah
Don't think that your charm and the fact
that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants
I'll have to kick your ass
and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop
Thought I liked you a lot but I'm really upset
(im really upset)
So get out of my head

Get off of my bed
Yeah, thats what I said
Did i not tell you that I'm not like that
Girl the one who throws it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to
you
this ti-e-i-i ime
Did you think that there was something else
gonna do
and cry-y-i-y-i
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way-eyeah
This guilt trip that you put me on
Won't mess me up i've done no wrong
Any thought of you and me have gone away
e-yeah-e-yeah-e-yeah-e-yeahh
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to
you
this ti-e-i-i ime
Did you think that there was something else
gonna do
then cry-y-i-y-i
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way-eyeah
you're better off that wayyy
im better off along anyway

hiya swEetiEs!! l0ng time since i updated this thing.. hMm... l0tsa stuffiEs happEned.. wEll, s0me go0d somE n0t.. wat can i say... hahaha nvm...l0lxXx lEmme tell ya wat happEned ytd.... hEhehE~

Saturday - 17th April
Went out with my h0mies [ carla, twiggy & ryan ], lala-banana has measlEs... aWw... hahaha, ok yeah, went 0ut with thEm f0r dinNer.. we c0uldn't make up our mind to eat @ where, ended up at KFC.. l0lxXx.. met up with lydia & sikai there... da gang thought tt SIKAI (of all ppl) was my bf.. c0s he sat d0wn there & kinda lo0ked at them.. l0lxXx.. i was laughin like an idi0t then... hahaha... went f0r bball after that with pat & sikai... freakin pat.. l0lxXx c CARLA so shy... walk away, *u heng she think u as n0t bad k!! lolx.. anti-s0cial to0..l0lxXx* then we seperated... i th0ught they w0uld go h0me.. BUT they came to the bball c0urt to l0ok for us.. hahaha.. po0r pat.. l0lxXx.. thEn after bball we went t0 grab somethin t0 eat.. the ramli burger izzit? aiight... yumMy!! hehEhe~ then wanted t0 walk pat t0 the bus-st0p but his bus came le... thEn i remembered one thing i t0ld sikai last time... haha, u kn0w in ur life u have like so many regrets on wat decisi0ns we made? yeah this is one of them... i miss the days where he sends me h0me... laughin, talkin on the bus ride... all that, really miss em, & to think i used to n0t wan him to send me h0me cos i was afraid tt my dad or neighb0ur w0uld caught us... sweet memories... sometimes i'm als0 rather afraid tt hew0uld fall for carla, but i can't blame him for that.. she's dr0p dead gorge0us... so wh0 w0uldn't? jus dun wan him t0 leave my side again... haixXx... eEk, dunn0 y so l0ve sick l0lxXx...

t0day - 18th April
Can say i have been really t0lerant today? haha *go0d j0b samMie* my mum's so weird... whEn i w0ke up, she started sc0ldin & cursin me... erm, the usual shit ab0ut me being a l0ser yada yada... and my kids being as dumb as mE... oh well, she's really pissed at s0methin which has happened t0 my family i guessed... well she started calling me names, i c0uldn't take it anym0re i called her to shut up... she always takes this opp0rtunity when dad is n0t around t0 scream her head off me... that's y pEeps i l0ve my dada al0t!!!! hMM.... then XH came online & started to tell me wateva rum0ur shit the guys were sayin... that mE & pat's relati0nship is n0t stable... aiyah.. i dun wanna say anythin l0... c0s it's likE, wateva i say ur will still have ur own thinking rite? so i let ur think wateva ur wan bah... but to get this d0wn right clear here... me & pat r ok.. we patch lE.... fine? happy? argh... i'm happy with him lo... s0 dun keep askin me ab0ut whether we jus br0ke up or our relati0nship n0t stable izzit... hahaha~ really weird th0ugh, when XH t0ld me i wanna laugh, he asked me first, " u & pat break le rite?" then ask "ur tw0 relationship n0t stable ah?", i was like wtf~ u sayin, if we break le, relationship still will not stable meh? dun even hav a relationship le mah! hahaha~ l0lxXxXx... lemme laugh bah, stay in this hell for one wh0le day can diE le... cann0t go out.... stupid mum... haixXx, l0lxXx.. i tell u ah, she can make u cry de l0... that stupid w0men & her mouth.... really stabbed my heart.... nvm la, i was like * i have 2 rejoice, yeah rejoice!!!!* l0lxXx... misSed pat so much... really wish tt he's right here right n0w, for me t0 cuddle.. yeah!!! l0lxXx need b0dy warmth.... hahahhaa! yuCk~ so horny suddenly.. hahaha~ miss him.love him.want him.need him. hehEheeHE~ aiight, k i'm like g0nna study n0w... man, my body is so itch.. dun tell me i hav MEASLES!!!! l0lxXx.. k la... nitE my l0vely pe0ple...!!!!

blastin' Blink 182's - I miss you

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends (miss you miss you, miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
(miss you miss you, miss you miss you, miss you miss you)

y0zziE earthlings..!! why? tell mE why?!?! hAix... havin PMS which is like so sickEnin... really a crappy nite f0r me... i m so pissed & feelin so h0t.. wanna take a bath later.. why pat & mE like n0thin happen like tt? i w0nder if it's for real, i h0pe God would d0 somethin.. i hav been takin the initiative.. that i'm so siCk of it? i mean like, ain't it n0w his turn? haixXx... wat can i d0? i dunn0.. i jus misS him al0t, i guess i really cann0t compete against his frens and RO. maybE we just stead for a name? i duNno... really c0nfused rite n0w... well saw him grabbing Janice's hand just n0w, i mean like really h0lding it... playing with her... h0w come he couldn't d0 the same to me? m i that scary? saw him talking t0 eileen al0ne jus n0w... y can't he talk to mE like that to0, d0 we really have n0thin to talk ab0ut? saw him taking pictures with jEnny in class, which made me remember wat he said t0 me the other time " i w0n't take with u c0s with u inside the piCture, it'll be s0 damn ugly.." i kn0w he's jus j0kin la, but i can't help remembering it... Just really wish that we c0uld go back int0 the past again... where i am really very happy being with him and vice versa... Days where we spent online playin games or g0in out, having fun t0gether. Nights where we lay on the ro0fgarden talkin & chattin... i really miSs the old times... is God goin to give them back to me? Maybe i am thinking to0 much cause i'm having my peri0d blah blah blah, but i really wish mem0ries of 2003 will return again, days of fun & laughter... and l0ve.. Maybe writing here w0uld not be of use c0s he hardly reads my bl0g, but i really wish he c0uld take the initiative, i feel really shy asking him stuff... i duNn0 y... and even when lydia t0ld me this: when lydia, ah ma, pat & yj + lydia's sis were at ah ma's hse d0in project, lydia's sis s0rta had a crush on pat & called him " xia0 shuai gE", she asked him y hE l0ved me so muCh, he jus replied.. " very very very very much lor... yeah jus very much lor.." haha lydia t0ld me this i was like flushed RED.. blushing like mad k... i mean like that's really sweet, but h0w come he d0esn't tell me!!! hahaha~ i m MAD, oh well, h0pe my d3ar slEep tite, misS him l0ts today... dunN0 y... feelin a lil bit h0rny? hahahha~ ok0k i'll shut the crap.. l0ve him... haha h0pe tt God would do something about us.. hEhe~
had NAPFA test t0day, i think i did well? I am really happy with my results lo... no regrets.. haha TYGod... but my freakin maths test.. didn't d0 the last questi0n cos lack of time.. so freakin angry man... wanted t0 burst out in tears lE.... hahhaa
oh well, h0pe that all things g0es smo0thly for every1.. really misS that pigGy al0t.. hahahhaa.. all i can think of now is him.. Him... HIM.... hMm.. if he ever reads this... i will try t0 help to impr0ve our relationship k? hehehe~ aiyah, dun play to0 much RO la.. ppl will l0nely de... LOLX... that's all, well i'm g0in to bathe... nite angels! l0vE ya babE!

blastin' Frente's - Bizarre Love Triangle

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Every time I see you falling
I'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

hiyA b0diEs!! l0lxXx.. bEen reAlly b0nkErs for thE past fEw days.. hAhahAhaHAa.. l0lxXx C i t0ld ya!!!! wEnt t0 chuRch t0day to praiSe thE l0rd, learnt fr0m past0r princE tt n0 matteR wat, g0d wants us t0 rej0ice, c0s if we feel sad, depressed or hurt.. we are turning ourselves t0 the devil, wh0 makes us l0se faith in 0urself & the almighty g0d.. n0 mattEr wat, d0 have faith... hEhehEhe~ f0r eg, if ur siCk, say uR healed.. uR blesSings wilL c0me one day!
nExt to0k piCtures with zhEn, can say quitE nic3? ate pasta till i wanna thr0w up all those creamy stufF! eEk~ then went t0 the esplanade's library.. really l0ve that place al0t, it's so beautiful & well furnished, w0uld love to g0 back there again next week.. heEz! came back h0me around 2pm.. lay d0wn on my bed, wishing t0 have some beauty sleep.. then SUDDENLY the ph0ne ring, great i have pr0ject @ 5.30pm @ ah ma's hse.. so tired le leh.... zZzzZz. n0 choice went f0r pr0ject, came h0me around 10pm.. wah so tired.. haven't completed homew0rk yet.. i m so dead man... *c0ngrats sam* oh well, c wat i can d0 tmr... hEheHehe.. c ya in dream l4nd guys! later~

blastin Hoobastank's - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

haha.. happiest day of my life? i opened my golden mouth & asked pat f0r a patch.. luck was on my side he said "gimme a few days to think about" ahaha really glad he gave this kinda answer.. sh0ws that he gr0w up le!! s0 proud of him.. l0lxXx.. really went b0nkers today.. perhaps i'm to0 tired le bah... need t0 sleep lolxXx... haha.. l0ve patty al0t.. dunn0 y.. he say i very stupid to love him.. but i dun think s0 leh... even th0ugh he thinks he's n0thing.. to me he's everythin!! hEheHehe~ n0 one can fight l0ve bah.. =) really very happy...!! xie le la0 pa!!! if u nv give me inspirati0n to think ab0ut this... today i'll still b m0urning over him.. hahaha... but pri0rity to studies first l0.. i dun wan to keep slacking le.. must BUCK UP!!! t0day had my oral examinati0n.. freaky man, the examiner is misS ong!! but, i didn't kn0w i feel so c0mfortable talking to her.. mayb i say l0tsa crap bah... but quite stressful, dun hav to think of anythin.. hehehehe! i guess ppl have thier go0d & bad days... this is one of the many go0d days god has given me.. i'll treasure it dearly!! & never let it g0!!! heHEheEhehe~ well l0ve ya l0ts ---> pat =P *muack*

blastin' Lionel Richie & Diana Ross's duet - Endless Love

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's bright

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
(I-I-I-I-I)
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
(Ohhhhhh)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
Oh, love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh, you know I don't mind

'Cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oooh-woow
Boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, booom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom

Oooh, and love
Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh you know-
I don't mind

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause NO one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

go0d friday, this very day i pray t0 g0d. my onE & only chance f0r a miracle t0 happEn. my h0pe. my dream. my happiness. i pray t0 dear l0rd jesus, for an0ther miracle, t0 be back with pat again. will it happen? g0d knows best. i made a bet with alex, if char nv puts her head on his sh0ulder, i'll treat him t0 a bubblE tea, if i g0t rejected by pat if i ask f0r a patch, he'll treat mE bubble tea. if he rejects me, i dun think i'll be sad bah, i mean like we can still be frens.. & i get my bubble tea.. but i really h0pe he accepts me.. miss him s0 much.. realise i really l0ve that guy al0t... y s0 much?? l0ve is blind... oh well en0ugh about that guy.. =P s0rta happy & fun day t0day, actually this m0rning i was like s0 damn freakin tirEd, but that bryan w0ke me up with his sms.. zZzzZ there g0es my beauty sleep!! l0lxXx i want3d to g0 to his church play, but there's exam tmr!! *sorry bryan*.. i was kinda pissed with zhEn, char & alex lo.. trying very hard to contact them, wanted to ask if they wanna meet up t0 buy the prezzie f0r pei yu... BUT th0se 3 weird0s nv answer their hp... then i went to meet suZ t0 buy pei yu's present * thank g0d for suzziE* b0ught her a really superbly cute ph0to frame!! ahHh.. i l0ve it man.. lolxXx went t0 pei yu's bday party.. can considered that it was a blast??? l0lxXx had so much fun playin bball * bball!!! so0o0oo long nv t0uch le* lolxXx.. love it man!! then rachel & uS made a bet lo.. if any0ne of us sho0t a 3 pointer in.. she will stead with yuEn tuck.. l0lxXx we were 0nly given once chance lo.. l0lxXx being lucky, mine went in.. ahahaha rachel was like screamin l0.. so cutE.. hahaha.. she keep sayin she dun wan... but we ask her t0 give it a try l0.. yuen tuCk is a go0d man... hehEhehEhe~ n0t my fault k... i didn't kn0w i was THIS lucky.. lolxXx.. then we all piggEd out at pei yu's hse.. talked ab0ut stuff lo... haha happy day th0ugh really happie.. miss him l0ts... hEheHehe... if i ask him t0 patch... will he patch with mE? answEr me can? l0lxXx.. PLS!!! haha
nitE!

blastin' Craig David's - You don't miss your water ( till the well runs dry )

As I sail with you across the finest oceans
On a way to find the key to our emotions
Together we will move the clouds to brighter days
Some people question what I say
Tried to break up you and me
But I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
There may be sad and pain for time so long to wait
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

For you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Girl you know that you
You are always
You are always on my mind
You are always forever

You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

You don't miss your water girl no
But I believe so strongly in you and I yeah
Can somebody answer me the question why
Cause you don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry yeah listen
If you ever get the feeling
You wanna play around starting cheating, remember
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry

hiya pe0ple.. =) haha.. ytd dunn0 sad or happy leh.. pr0bably during netball tt time i'm kinda upset l0.. c0ach ke3p sc0lding me.. say i cann0t catch ball pr0perly.. i really tri3d my best l0... haix feel like this w0rld is so distant fr0m me.. firstly studiEs dr0p, next xXx n0t here lia0, m0reover netball skills bec0me w0rse.. y like tt? Can g0d dun take everything that i have away fr0m me? I really need thEm lo.. haixXx.. nEtball that time bth le then cry... thinking, i cause the team cann0t play netball like that.. haix.. i cann0t afford t0 n0t have netball.. i vent all my frustrati0ns on netball, then maybe i'll be happy lo... but ytd think lE think lE... think of the past again.... i trying my best t0 forget it... but everytime i see him, my life lits up... i have never felt s0 happy bef0re bah.. maybe like this also go0d en0ugh...? talking t0 him already sparks up everything... l0sin him was the w0rst... i am c0ping... need t0 get used to a life with0ut him bah.. but i just can't help thinking ab0ut him... =S... *sighs* deep in my heart really wish t0 shout to the w0rld how much i miss him, but will the w0rld care? only i d0... s0metimes when i think i am truly very happy, i start t0 wonder... why? why am i happy? why must i be happy? am i really this happy? Memories will then flo0d back in my mind again... Love can make life seem like a paradise to live in, it can also make life like hell.. but for me, it t0uched me to the edge of the w0rld, bringing me places i've never been, making my heart be filled with different types of em0tions and most of all see life in a different perspective.. Perhaps time will tell why i loved him so much? Perhaps.. Perhaps, it c0uld even make me see how stupid i am to fall so deeply in l0ve..? Perhaps.. But nothing can st0p me fr0m loving him.. What d0ne is d0ne, my em0tions are fixed.. Yes, i kn0w we may n0t be t0gether, i may fall f0r some0ne else, but, he made an unerasable impression in my heart and i'll always remember him.. =) all i can d0 now is ask g0d for a miracle.. pray that maybe fate will give us a chance again..=)

blastin' Dreamz FM's - Should i stay

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

hiya.. hmM.. 2nd day tt me & pat br0ke up le.. cried and th0ught about it the wh0le aftern0on, everytime my frens tell me t0 not think ab0ut it, i will remember an occasion where we are t0gether, like lo0kin at the stars at night, lying on the roofgarden, g0ing to little india t0gether during deepavali, spending xmas t0gether, walking at orchard r0ad, all the crap & nonsense we talk till dawn, us playing bball t0gether, having fun last year.. s0 much... i'm g0ing to take it sl0wly bah.. alth0ugh this relationship is a failure, but he cann0t stop me fr0m liking him... i am h0ping f0r a miracle t0 happen again, just wish that almighty g0d would bless us once again.. didn't eat f0r almost the wh0le day, spent it on crying, d0in homew0rk & thinking...i am s0 glad that we c0uld stand an0ther chance again... i think i've fallen s0 deep in l0ve & g0t shattered that's why i never ever wanna l0ve any0ne when we first stead... But after i met pat, i realise that pe0ple do n0t appreciate things, s0me stuff y0u let g0.. it'll be g0ne 4ever.. Loving him is the m0st unregretful decisi0n i ever made in my life, alth0ugh it br0ke my heart which is still hurting n0w, I am s0 glad that i was with him... Great catch, great guy,t0 me he is just perfect.. You guys may object or what s0 ever... but he really changed my life tremend0usly.. He gave me h0pe, supp0rt, care & l0ve, m0re than i can ask f0r..Probably, the saddest thing w0uld be that he thinks i g0t a thing with bryan?? When he t0ld me that, i wanted t0 tell him that i have s0lely loved him f0r all my life... Yet he said that, which means.. he d0es n0t trust me? More or less, i am als0 upset that he wants t0 end our relationship just like that, i th0ught we w0uld last, h0ld on... y0u kn0w that sorta thing? Hope that we w0uld patch up one day bah.. be it one week, one m0nth or even a year, i w0uld be waiting f0r him... i cann0t seem to f0rget ab0ut him in just a day 0r tw0... He's special... You know that? i really am trying my best t0 forget about the sweet mem0ries we used to share, trying t0 move on with my life, but there was s0 much happiness i experienced last time.. Will I be able to experience it again? With him? Read our chatlogs again... Really miss him al0t alot... I d0n't wish to cry f0r him, but the tears just dr0p out naturally.. the only time when i am happy is when we talk.. Pat, please give us a chance in the future won't ya? May not be right n0w or anything.. But please if y0u still like me give us a chance.. I sound so desperate.. But only desperate f0r him bah... if only i said i did n0t wanna listen t0 wateva he said last night, if only i did n0t agree t0 break up... But will we be happy? Haix.. just need him... So sad, i just cannot believe our l0ve was this sh0rt... reading the 0ld chatl0gs, made me wanna burst out in tears again... I still love him al0t.. Hope god will give us a chance... Haix. 7 months... So much stuff happened... Now it's like ain't any better, kn0wing that i l0ve u.. but i can't have u... dunn0 wat to d0.... life sux.... Thanks pat... f0r all tt u have d0ne...

blastin' Sheryl Cr0w's - First Cut is the Deepest

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side

just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

haix.. 7 months together, it's finally over... i made up my mind wanting to break.. But i couldn't... He broke the news to me... But why am i still crying? I love him alot... I don't care who is reading this.. Why g0d can't give us another chance? I dunno how to tell my frens... i scared when i break the news.. i will be crying again.. i very sad... wish to die in bed.. sleep forever... d0n't wish to talk le..

blastin' Boxcar Racer's - There is

this vacation's useless
these white pills aren't kind
i've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
i've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
the days have come and gone
our lives when but so fast
i faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
where i laid and told you but you sweared you loved me more

do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there someone out there who feels just like me
there is

those notes you wrote me
i've kept them all
i'll give a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall

with every single letter in every single word there
will be a hidden message about a boy that's
loves a girl
do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

do you care if i don't know what to say?
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me

do you care if i don't know what to say?
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

haix.. al0t of things happen this week.. b0th happy and sad... Never l0g online f0r 5 days lE... miSs my c0mputer sia... but misS him even m0re... ( l0st chance 2 talk 2 hiM ) hmM.. lemmE say the wh0le of this week bah..

- m0nday -
0n Sun already hav s0me rum0urs that Jiax2 like pat, pat like janice all th0se crap already.. but i ch0se not to believe it, rum0urs only wat... it's n0t true.. m0reover, i want t0 trust him... Every0ne just say l0... haix.. make me s0 pissed off lo.. keep saying i n0t jealous meh... l0lxXx.. n0pe not at all.... f0r the first & the last time i mean it.. i trust him... That day i was s0 freakin mad i vent it all on netball... i th0ught the next day w0uld b better... but i was wr0ng..

- tuesd4y -
he started av0idin me... i s0 l0nely.. no one to talk t0 then i asked suzanNe t0 call mE *thanks mEi* really need s0meone t0 talk to... then i smsed him.. he reply like givin the *dun-talk-t0-me* attitude.. make me s0 sad.. i br0ke my pr0mise.. i cried again...

- wednesday -
went t0 cdac... the guys ( ivan, weiming,r0ngli,pat ) were tryin t0 make each other faint... then i saw him faint l0... u kn0w very scary mah... i t0ld zhen they all b4 i dreamt that he died b4..... s0 scary then c him faint.. my heart beat s0 fast.... like wanna jump out fr0m my body.. so i got over it by laughin lo... that ivan ah.. faint le.. walk walk walk... i th0ught he goin to vomit.. but when he regain conciousness, he was like " h0w come i'm here..? i th0ught i was there de?" lolx... cute~

- thursd4y -
bo0~! scared? haha april fo0ls day... had s0 much fun t0day.. played with fl0ur,water n p0wder... hahaha.. heng hav relief teacher f0r the last peri0d... but we spent it by d0in a strategy on h0w to attack the 2e4 b0ys.. wth~ our class hav tw0 betrayers.. *pat & rays0n* lolx haha.. so straight after class... we ran to the normal acad blocks n hid in the gals t0liet... nicholas, lydia & herman stay in class to lure them away.. s0 we went int0 2e4, grab alex's & weilo0n's bag n pour flour inside.. lolx... then to0k wateva weap0ns they br0ugh.. *st0le alex's water gun & hair gel... then they saw us with the water gun, so we ran all the way to the sec 1 express the gal's t0liet n stayed there... but they h0r.. not scared de... c0me in the toliet n snatch.. lolx charlene use water gun attack i thr0w flour & hair gel at them.. lolx... then that couple h0r.. char n alex... alex go right int0 the toliet wan to snatch, then char dun gv him... s0 she kicked his xia0 didi... l0lx.. twice! he said it was painful... haha.. s0 fun!! their b0dies very er xing lo... i put the hair wax all over them... oily... hahaha... then later we went back t0 class.. -.-pengzz~ s0 much fl0ur!!! n we have t0 clean up l0... they say wat edwin n0t happy, wanna beat us up liao.... $@!% him lo... haha... then we clean... i g0in toliet tt time, stupid alex, he take his water gun headsh0t at me.. all the water go in my ear!!!!! KA0!!! then i go take revenge fill my water b0ttle then i p0ur all over him... muahahahaha gals r0ck! haha... then later at night.. so l0nely again, bryan called me lo... then we talk talk talk until 11.45pm.. then i cann0t stand le.. g0 slp.. lolx..

- friday -
quite sad bah... he m0ody then av0id me? haix.. dunno leh... so bth le i jus cry on the bus lo.... dun wan anyone t0 c... then heng g0t mahjong to save me... i play lo.. play n play n play.. l0lx.. then later he like treat me ok liao.. on the bus hav talk t0 me... my happiest bus ride ever... haha...

haiix.. later goin t0 bugis with them... h0pe it'll b a fine puuurfect day bah =)

blastin' Nelly Furtado's - Try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life

I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love