hiya swEetiEs!! l0ng time since i updated this thing.. hMm... l0tsa stuffiEs happEned.. wEll, s0me go0d somE n0t.. wat can i say... hahaha nvm...l0lxXx lEmme tell ya wat happEned ytd.... hEhehE~

Saturday - 17th April
Went out with my h0mies [ carla, twiggy & ryan ], lala-banana has measlEs... aWw... hahaha, ok yeah, went 0ut with thEm f0r dinNer.. we c0uldn't make up our mind to eat @ where, ended up at KFC.. l0lxXx.. met up with lydia & sikai there... da gang thought tt SIKAI (of all ppl) was my bf.. c0s he sat d0wn there & kinda lo0ked at them.. l0lxXx.. i was laughin like an idi0t then... hahaha... went f0r bball after that with pat & sikai... freakin pat.. l0lxXx c CARLA so shy... walk away, *u heng she think u as n0t bad k!! lolx.. anti-s0cial to0..l0lxXx* then we seperated... i th0ught they w0uld go h0me.. BUT they came to the bball c0urt to l0ok for us.. hahaha.. po0r pat.. l0lxXx.. thEn after bball we went t0 grab somethin t0 eat.. the ramli burger izzit? aiight... yumMy!! hehEhe~ then wanted t0 walk pat t0 the bus-st0p but his bus came le... thEn i remembered one thing i t0ld sikai last time... haha, u kn0w in ur life u have like so many regrets on wat decisi0ns we made? yeah this is one of them... i miss the days where he sends me h0me... laughin, talkin on the bus ride... all that, really miss em, & to think i used to n0t wan him to send me h0me cos i was afraid tt my dad or neighb0ur w0uld caught us... sweet memories... sometimes i'm als0 rather afraid tt hew0uld fall for carla, but i can't blame him for that.. she's dr0p dead gorge0us... so wh0 w0uldn't? jus dun wan him t0 leave my side again... haixXx... eEk, dunn0 y so l0ve sick l0lxXx...

t0day - 18th April
Can say i have been really t0lerant today? haha *go0d j0b samMie* my mum's so weird... whEn i w0ke up, she started sc0ldin & cursin me... erm, the usual shit ab0ut me being a l0ser yada yada... and my kids being as dumb as mE... oh well, she's really pissed at s0methin which has happened t0 my family i guessed... well she started calling me names, i c0uldn't take it anym0re i called her to shut up... she always takes this opp0rtunity when dad is n0t around t0 scream her head off me... that's y pEeps i l0ve my dada al0t!!!! hMM.... then XH came online & started to tell me wateva rum0ur shit the guys were sayin... that mE & pat's relati0nship is n0t stable... aiyah.. i dun wanna say anythin l0... c0s it's likE, wateva i say ur will still have ur own thinking rite? so i let ur think wateva ur wan bah... but to get this d0wn right clear here... me & pat r ok.. we patch lE.... fine? happy? argh... i'm happy with him lo... s0 dun keep askin me ab0ut whether we jus br0ke up or our relati0nship n0t stable izzit... hahaha~ really weird th0ugh, when XH t0ld me i wanna laugh, he asked me first, " u & pat break le rite?" then ask "ur tw0 relationship n0t stable ah?", i was like wtf~ u sayin, if we break le, relationship still will not stable meh? dun even hav a relationship le mah! hahaha~ l0lxXxXx... lemme laugh bah, stay in this hell for one wh0le day can diE le... cann0t go out.... stupid mum... haixXx, l0lxXx.. i tell u ah, she can make u cry de l0... that stupid w0men & her mouth.... really stabbed my heart.... nvm la, i was like * i have 2 rejoice, yeah rejoice!!!!* l0lxXx... misSed pat so much... really wish tt he's right here right n0w, for me t0 cuddle.. yeah!!! l0lxXx need b0dy warmth.... hahahhaa! yuCk~ so horny suddenly.. hahaha~ miss him.love him.want him.need him. hehEheeHE~ aiight, k i'm like g0nna study n0w... man, my body is so itch.. dun tell me i hav MEASLES!!!! l0lxXx.. k la... nitE my l0vely pe0ple...!!!!

blastin' Blink 182's - I miss you

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends (miss you miss you, miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
(miss you miss you, miss you miss you, miss you miss you)