y0x pE0ple~ hmM... h0w r ya? i havEn't bEen updating this thing f0r quite s0me time... but i waste this peri0d of timE for somE go0d use k? l0lxXx... i revampEd my bl0g lE.. a wh0le new layout.. nicE bah? l0lxXx.. so pink h0r... l0lxXx... hMm... so wat u guys hav bEen up t0 latEly? miSs mE mah? hahaha~ i gEttin vEry lamE these days.. pr0bably whEn i lamE h0r... i will f0rget ab0ut all my tr0ubles bah...=) blEah~ l0lxXx... hMm.. i th0ught f0r a l0ng time whEn i was on thE way h0me in my fathEr's l0rry... i saw thE stars.. thE mo0n... i dEcided... it's timE t0 lEt go bah... i let g0 bec0s i l0ve him to0 much lE... i dun wanna sh0w it t0 him lE... if hE really wan me, he will naturally c0me back t0 me de.. c0s i'll be waitin f0r him... i w0n't tell him bah... hmm.. my heartaching l0... very xin t0ng dE u knw? l0lxXx.. but God dun wan us t0 be t0gether bah.. mayb n0t now... perhaps mayb in the futurE will hav s0me h0pe.. but thEn i dunn0 whethEr i'll stilL likE him mah... i gvin mysElf 3 months to f0rget ab0ut him... very l0ng rite? haha.. first stEad with marcus to0k ab0ut 2 months bah.. so n0w i think 3 months sh0uld be adequate en0ugh... =).. haha, hE givEs me al0t of mem0ries lo... espEcially whEn i listEn t0 Qing+ian... watch thE mtv.. i dun wan t0 c u lEave first... i dun wan t0 c ur back facing mE first, s0 i think i shall lEave first bah.. bE like thE gal in the mtv l0... haha~ very lamE h0r? but mayb that's the only way i can f0rget ab0ut him bah... l0lxXx... i hEar Qing+ian h0r.. all the mem0ries flo0d back sia.. miSs him al0t.. but thEn it's timE t0 lEt g0.. lEt g0 of the happinEss which seemed t0 appear jus yEsterday... s0metimes bth lE.. will dr0p a tear or tw0 bah... n0 ch0ice... l0ve hurts..=) yet i still bElieve in l0vE... hEhehE~ i wilL remEmber him bah... left a really dEep scar insidE my hEart... alL fulL of 0ur mEm0ries... days whEre wE spEnt timE t0gethEr.. b0ttled up insidE... haixXx... -[pat]- th0ugh u say u n0 feelins f0r mE le, i still hav f0r u l0.... hMm... u say wE'll bE spEcial frEns.. but i dun think it'll happEn lo... in thE end, we'll jus bE n0rmal frEns mah.... it's always like tt de... dun feel guilty ab0ut breakin up with me lo... ur gr0wing up lE.. havin pubErty, mind vEry ficklE.. wat can i d0? i cann0t ask god to stop this w0rld from moving on & head back int0 the past whEre we were so happy t0gether... Everytime i read the chatl0g of us, i l0nged to find the past u again... but i kn0w it's nEva g0nna happen... thEre's only one u... onE & only which left this scar in mE... i dun blame u... hAix.. n0w u may n0t even gv a damn ab0ut mE lo... but i d0.. mayb feelins wilL jus fadE away bah... but the times i spEnt with u r onE of my happiEst.. c0s i hav frEed0m & l0vE... alL fr0m u... really appreciate that... th0ugh we r considEred frens n0w... i rEally h0pe we stilL can g0 out t0gether bah... u kn0w likE crap ar0und? haha.. muS ji0 mE go out k? l0lxXx.. and dun call mE stupid t0 fall in l0ve with u lE... in the first placE, u r the onE wh0 madE me l0ve u this much... =xXx... haixXx... l0lxXx... alL thE best l0, i may n0t be ur drEam gal, but i did tEll u l0tsa things.... =) hEhehE~... haix an0ther failEd relati0nship... s0mEtimes i really wish i c0uld slp f0rever & wake up t0 forget everythin.. alL the past... h0pE it'll happEn to mE... haha... i scared i g0t diabEtes leh.. these few days few so wEak like tt... haix... scared lEh... i dun wanna diE leh... l0lxXx... oh yeah, s0 lucky sia mE... w0n thE readEr digest pil0t pen competit0n.. so happy sia.... l0lxXx... n0w i really hate to be al0ne lo.. last time at lEast hav pat whEn my frens n0t ar0und, but n0w, God has taken everythin away fr0m me le... god pls bring thEm back to mE k? i dun wanna l0se them... hahahA~ b0ught tw0 cd's complimentary fr0m my dad, bEy0nce's dangErously in l0vE & thE l0ving u cd.. damn nicE sia all the s0ngs.... haha.. these few days feel like i crap al0t with ppl.. quite fun bah.. l0lxXx... well, i g2g lE.. nitE all!! l0vE ya!!

blastin' H.I.M's - Funeral of Hearts

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon
The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
He was the moon
Painting you
With it's glow so vulnerable and pale

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in
All the troubles and fears here for years tried to forget
He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
Pray to god who's deaf and blind
The last night's the soul's on fire
Three little words and a question why

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you