hiya pe0ple.. =) haha.. ytd dunn0 sad or happy leh.. pr0bably during netball tt time i'm kinda upset l0.. c0ach ke3p sc0lding me.. say i cann0t catch ball pr0perly.. i really tri3d my best l0... haix feel like this w0rld is so distant fr0m me.. firstly studiEs dr0p, next xXx n0t here lia0, m0reover netball skills bec0me w0rse.. y like tt? Can g0d dun take everything that i have away fr0m me? I really need thEm lo.. haixXx.. nEtball that time bth le then cry... thinking, i cause the team cann0t play netball like that.. haix.. i cann0t afford t0 n0t have netball.. i vent all my frustrati0ns on netball, then maybe i'll be happy lo... but ytd think lE think lE... think of the past again.... i trying my best t0 forget it... but everytime i see him, my life lits up... i have never felt s0 happy bef0re bah.. maybe like this also go0d en0ugh...? talking t0 him already sparks up everything... l0sin him was the w0rst... i am c0ping... need t0 get used to a life with0ut him bah.. but i just can't help thinking ab0ut him... =S... *sighs* deep in my heart really wish t0 shout to the w0rld how much i miss him, but will the w0rld care? only i d0... s0metimes when i think i am truly very happy, i start t0 wonder... why? why am i happy? why must i be happy? am i really this happy? Memories will then flo0d back in my mind again... Love can make life seem like a paradise to live in, it can also make life like hell.. but for me, it t0uched me to the edge of the w0rld, bringing me places i've never been, making my heart be filled with different types of em0tions and most of all see life in a different perspective.. Perhaps time will tell why i loved him so much? Perhaps.. Perhaps, it c0uld even make me see how stupid i am to fall so deeply in l0ve..? Perhaps.. But nothing can st0p me fr0m loving him.. What d0ne is d0ne, my em0tions are fixed.. Yes, i kn0w we may n0t be t0gether, i may fall f0r some0ne else, but, he made an unerasable impression in my heart and i'll always remember him.. =) all i can d0 now is ask g0d for a miracle.. pray that maybe fate will give us a chance again..=)

blastin' Dreamz FM's - Should i stay

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…