y0zziE earthlings..!! why? tell mE why?!?! hAix... havin PMS which is like so sickEnin... really a crappy nite f0r me... i m so pissed & feelin so h0t.. wanna take a bath later.. why pat & mE like n0thin happen like tt? i w0nder if it's for real, i h0pe God would d0 somethin.. i hav been takin the initiative.. that i'm so siCk of it? i mean like, ain't it n0w his turn? haixXx... wat can i d0? i dunn0.. i jus misS him al0t, i guess i really cann0t compete against his frens and RO. maybE we just stead for a name? i duNno... really c0nfused rite n0w... well saw him grabbing Janice's hand just n0w, i mean like really h0lding it... playing with her... h0w come he couldn't d0 the same to me? m i that scary? saw him talking t0 eileen al0ne jus n0w... y can't he talk to mE like that to0, d0 we really have n0thin to talk ab0ut? saw him taking pictures with jEnny in class, which made me remember wat he said t0 me the other time " i w0n't take with u c0s with u inside the piCture, it'll be s0 damn ugly.." i kn0w he's jus j0kin la, but i can't help remembering it... Just really wish that we c0uld go back int0 the past again... where i am really very happy being with him and vice versa... Days where we spent online playin games or g0in out, having fun t0gether. Nights where we lay on the ro0fgarden talkin & chattin... i really miSs the old times... is God goin to give them back to me? Maybe i am thinking to0 much cause i'm having my peri0d blah blah blah, but i really wish mem0ries of 2003 will return again, days of fun & laughter... and l0ve.. Maybe writing here w0uld not be of use c0s he hardly reads my bl0g, but i really wish he c0uld take the initiative, i feel really shy asking him stuff... i duNn0 y... and even when lydia t0ld me this: when lydia, ah ma, pat & yj + lydia's sis were at ah ma's hse d0in project, lydia's sis s0rta had a crush on pat & called him " xia0 shuai gE", she asked him y hE l0ved me so muCh, he jus replied.. " very very very very much lor... yeah jus very much lor.." haha lydia t0ld me this i was like flushed RED.. blushing like mad k... i mean like that's really sweet, but h0w come he d0esn't tell me!!! hahaha~ i m MAD, oh well, h0pe my d3ar slEep tite, misS him l0ts today... dunN0 y... feelin a lil bit h0rny? hahahha~ ok0k i'll shut the crap.. l0ve him... haha h0pe tt God would do something about us.. hEhe~
had NAPFA test t0day, i think i did well? I am really happy with my results lo... no regrets.. haha TYGod... but my freakin maths test.. didn't d0 the last questi0n cos lack of time.. so freakin angry man... wanted t0 burst out in tears lE.... hahhaa
oh well, h0pe that all things g0es smo0thly for every1.. really misS that pigGy al0t.. hahahhaa.. all i can think of now is him.. Him... HIM.... hMm.. if he ever reads this... i will try t0 help to impr0ve our relationship k? hehehe~ aiyah, dun play to0 much RO la.. ppl will l0nely de... LOLX... that's all, well i'm g0in to bathe... nite angels! l0vE ya babE!

blastin' Frente's - Bizarre Love Triangle

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Every time I see you falling
I'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say