Batam 2009

HELLO EVERYONE!

Sorry for disappearing for so long. Have been really tired from trainings and helping to make props, I did make the effort to come online, but somehow after I pressed the ON/OFF button, I would have fallen in a deep sleep. So pardon me, I have been so pooped these days, I can't really remember what I do at night!

Anyhoo, I just came back from Batam! Yay! My virgin trip there, that left me with lotsa fruitful and heartfelt memories. It's my first trip overseas with Joyce, Joey, Nicole, Raazmy, Gin, KH, Ryan, Kenny etc. Very memorable! :)


Before I get into my super-long-aka-like-timothy's-speeches post, I wanna say: HAPPY 5th MONTH! Yes, darling, I am loving you more and more each day, so don't say I don't love you okay! I really thanked God for you and for being with me, despite my tantrums and the tendency to rebel against you! Hahaha! The fact that you still hold my hand when we argue and scream our heads off each other. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! ZHENG KAIWEN!


Okay back to Batam, the day started with me waking up at 6am and leaving my place at 7am, as I was walking to take the lrt in Punggol at Cove station. There was a "man" in the lift when I was rushing towards it and when I was at the door, he actually let the door close on me, luckily I was quick, I managed to open it in time. As I was heading inside, I casually glanced at that "guy", like what we normally do when we enter lifts.

Then he said in a super gayish tone "Why are you staring like that?". I didn't catch it initially, so he repeated. And I speechlessly said, "Cos the door closed?" and he said "Can't you see I am opening it for you?(SERIOUSLY LIKE NO.) Can't you wait?!" I was like, "Eh, yeah okay, I think you shouldn't judge people too much." AND AFTER THAT HE STARTED THIS MEGA-MARATHON OF CURSING! LOL TO THE MAX. He said: "You think you so pretty are? Got so many pimples!(Firstly, I never said I was pretty, secondly, the reason why i clipped my fringe up, is so that my pimples with recover, you gaywart!) Fucking bitch! Think you so pretty!"

At that moment I was LOL to the point I can burst out laughing, but I'm afraid he'll continue cursing me like there's no tomorrow or might even attack with the 0.01% of manliness he has in his body. So I said back to him "I think you should look at yourself first and you can say whatever you want. GOD WILL JUDGE." Seriously, if I was my old self, I would have said "I think you are just jealous cos my breasts are real and you can't have real breasts cos you look to beasty to be gay!". Lmao. He's seriously the metrosexual with a gay-wannabe-but-cannot-be vibe. Anyway, he kinda ruined but entertained my morning with his silly act. At least I have a story to share. :D

I just think that it's so unnecesary for him to curse. I mean you want just say justifiedly, not start cursing. Don't you know when you curse you lose? Anyway, does it make you feel good after that? No. It just makes you more pissed off. Plus, what makes you think it'll affect the other person? Use your brains beforeyou speak! The same applies to everyone I know.

BEWARE OF THIS GUY, PEOPLE STAYING AT PUNGGOL!

Next up Harbourfront Macs, to meet the rest and we left for the ferry at around 8 plus 9am, and managed to reach around 10am! Nice ride, cos I managed to sleep. Hahahaha! Anyway, a video to share below!



Me being in Team Harris, we were part of the programmes team and had to plan games and teach the kids certain skills. Sure had a blast and I think my Bahasa improved by a teeny weeny bit. Aku Cinta Padamu (Kaiwen)! LOL. So we taught them hygiene skills, how to dance and played certain games which were kinda fun. Nike, Sisca, Alento, Firman, Keysha etc etc. Oh how I miss their nonsense. Sure had a blast there!

Not much pictures cos I forgot to bring my camera!

US...

...presenting JJ!

Nike <3>

After which we headed to Batam City Centre for some shopping, I bought quite a bit of things. Yummy food! And off we set for Singapore!

Okay now, I'll just wait for people t tag me on facebook and put up videos! :)
Goodnight people!

random shiznicks

okay so i took another personality quiz. it's called The Real You, lol, somewhat true i guess? certain points contradict each other though, confusing.

The Real You

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.




Dinner at home today with boyfriend and family. Grandma finally met my beloved, it was a chill kinda thing, so nothing big-o-rama. dance is tiring my worn out body. plus the coughing, flu and memory block isn't helping much either. Just wanna recover and start breathing properly all over and also kissing the boyfriend. Hehe!

Okay gonna rest now. Goodnight people!

COME SUPPORT TPDE'S DANCE PRODUCTION GEMS 4: FAIRY OUR TALE!!!!

SALES POST

Hello guys, decided to put up more details of the shoes I am selling here. They are all brand new and authentic!

1. Adidas Americana Mid NBA (US 7.5/UK 7)

2. Adidas Gazelle OP (US 8/UK 6.5)

3. Puma Clyde in Bright Rose (US 6/UK 5)

4. Soda Black Pumps from Gojane.com (US 6.5)

I really wanna sell these shoes off fast! My shoe rack is overflowing with unworn shoes and sgflea.livejournal.com doesn't allow me to put up my goods there as I have yet to receive any postive feedback. Boo-hoo! Okay thanks for viewing anyway!

I decided to Ctrl+Alt+Delete to whatever that happened yesterday. Though your words keep running through my head, I have to move on. I can't keep messing my head round and round ust because of whatever you said. I think it was done in a fit of anger? Okay I don't know. I don't wanna know you too much, if not I'm afraid I will be too insensitive to your needs. Time will heal hurt, yes I have to believe in that.

SAMANTHA LEE! Have more faith in yourself! You can do it! The final lap, is still miles away, just keep pushing and not give up!

I am sorry for the way I phrased my words, not thinking how much it would hurt your ego and such. Okay Pangyang, stop scolding me already, I feel more depressed than ever. Feels likeI should eliminate all happiness in my life, for making people I love feel this way. I don't deserve this.

Just wished you would deny all the above and make me stay. I am a loser. Argh. Whatever. Meeting my favourite pongpong now (cos' there's one only.) ciao~

Will you call me?

blah

It's 5am now and I have yet to sleep. I can feel it kicking in already, but somehow i just have this urge to blog.

Why do you have to always hurt me with your words, whenever I bring an issue up? Okay, I admit, I do hurt you too, but is it always a must to hurt me back with the words you say? Truthfully I can't sleep because whatever you said keeps running through my head. You know how words can affect me and hit me hard, why do you have to resort to that?

I never meant to compare anything, I was just wondering why other boyfriends can do little things like remembering that their girlfriends are hungry but too busy to get food, and buy for them. Seeing Andreas dapao something that Iris likes to eat just made me have that sudden realisation.

Then you started comparing me with your bestfriend's girlfriend, telling me that you think she's better than me. That she is more understanding and knows her boyfriend better. It hurts you know. Far worst then what I said to you. I never said you were no good or anything, but those words you said to me really struck me hard. I then questioned you, "You said I was understanding that's why we are together." and you replied, "Yeah, you were, but I don't know what happened.".

After you hung up, I cried and sat thinking for many hours. Is this what you want? Is this what I want? For you to say such things, for me to get hurt? I know you will definitely blog or do something and then shoot me back in the end. In the end, I'll get hurt again, by the words you say. I just wish some times, you will see things in my perspective and see how much it hurts me by the words you say. At times, I wish you could suck whatever I said up, and change/improve. It's impossible, I am just a girlfriend to you. Every time I try to choose my words carefully, to minimize the hurt and end up hurting more instead. Maybe I should speak less, I don't know.

You say maybe we are not thougtful of each other. I choose to think otherwise. Maybe I think about you too much, I wanna be with you every moment if possible, if I am with my girlfriends, I will unconciously still think of you. Whether you are hungry, busy, tired etc.

That day when you flick my hand and walked away, made me realised the need for me to be independent. To be left standing there, picking up the pieces, pretending everything in the world is alright and moving on. I have to depend on myself for these.

You know when you hurt someone once, twice, thrice, they start putting on a protective shield around them to prevent it from happening again the fourth time. This is when people start to close themselves up and hide things from each other. I don't want this to happen, can you promise me you won't say things to hurt me again? I have my mother for that. I don't need another person in my life to put me down time and time again.

You don't know how happy you made me when you told me about my reggae choreography. Cos I was smiling in front of my shitty mobile phone. How happy I am when you send me home and accompanying me when I am PMSing. Or the fact, I really meant it when I said you were the best boyfriend in the world. In the end, I am not good enough. Likewise for dance and my pathetic life, I am not good enough.

I don't wanna cry anymore. Wishing someone was here to lend me a shoulder and wipe mucus all over their shirt. Okay, I am sorry for being a shitty girlfriend. Like what my mother said, I will always be shitty in whatever I do. fucker.

Relationship Blues

Unlikely time to be blogging, supposingly to call back kat at like 1pm, but i had a fever, inflammed throat and was coughing. So i fell asleep on the couch from 2pm till like 5.45pm. amazing. (by the way, kat just called, she just woke up. -.-)


Why am i blogging now?


I heard screams coming from the floors below my flat (yes they were that loud). being a typical Singaporean, I decided to eavesdrop and I kinda got a hang of what it was about. Initially, i thought it was some girl throwing a tantrum at home, blah blah blah, or perhaps the family, that owed loansharks money, living on the 10th floor of my flat were fighting.


Wrong. All wrong.


It's just a simple maritial dispute, kinda sad somehow when i heard the extremely loud conversation. The girl was yelling very exasperatedly "Do you even know what food I like? Do you even know what I like? You don't!" and she exploded in tears that sound so painful. I listened and started to feel a sense of heartache.


It's scary when you don't have the right partner, or maybe the partner you once thought was perfect for you, isn't. It's like getting pregnant and aborting the child. Then, you'll end up alone and lost. Somehow this thought made me afraid of marriage, now i know why people get coldfeet before they are bethrothed to each other. The questions running through your head will usually result in this, "What if he's not the right one?"; "What if I am not really in love with him?"; "What if he doesn't love me?"; "What if we result in a divorce?"; "What if...?" Many what if(s) will plague your mind in that moment and then for the brave they decide to try it out, for the chicken-hearted, they take the boot.


Sometimes the little things and the understanding of someone so well can just kill you.


Oh by the way I am selling these shoes for $25 - $50, tag.text/call/msn me if you are interested!

High Expenses & Holland Village

Yesterday, i headed down to O School's Bazaar for Tsunami Stricken Orphans to suss what items they have. Guess what? I bought a Nike Highcut Shoe (donated by Eve) for $30! Wee~ The good thing about buying things from there is that all proceeds will go towards the materials for the orphans! For example, paint for the orphanage, toothbrushes, shoe racks etc. So what are you waiting for? Go down to O School now and help us raise funds for them! Oh by the way, Kaiwen bought a shirt that Kevin has for $10, Ecko Unlimited, nice nice, must buy!

After which, we went on our long awaited date, I gave him two choices: Clarke Quay or Holland Village, and he chose the latter. Though it's pricey, but I know he'll love the ambience there :)

Holland Village here we come!

we settled at N.Y.D.C for dinner, both of us had their oven-baked specialities, it's cheap! $11.90 and pretty filling! :) Baby has Three Amigos and I had Red Hot Chilli Pepper. I love the way they name their dishes, so quirky and fun! In addition to our meal, Baby, went ahead and ordered King Tut's Favourite. You guys should know why, TUT like tutting? Yeah, we sure did tut super well after that. lol.

Then... he started taking pervertic/psychotic pictures of me!

Pay back time!!!!!

Seriously, that nostrils can give Royston Teoh's one a run for it's money. It so friggin' huge and hairy! *shudders in disgust* After the meal, we walked around, headed to Frolick for frozen yoghurt and Song & Song! We both bought an Adidas t-shirt, super old school and super dope! Hahaha. Spent about $41 in that store in all, wow. Lol.

Okay, i'm gonna do my blog to sell my stuff soon.

Please buy okay! It's to fund myself financially. I'm a broke bitch. :(

Okay bye all!

grunt rant

i was blog-hopping, yes, i am a bunny online and i read quite a number of blogs, just too lazy to tag, like some of the people who read my blog. lol. i chanced upon Jesscy's blog and managed to find this quiz and i took it. :)


My Results:

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


Hahaha. I don't agree on the education and the right job for me sections. Lol. I'm more laid-back and go with the flow when I have no aim, but I have an aim, so I'm working hard for that aim which is not a 9 - 5 kinda job.

Seriously, some thing has been in my head for a looooooooong time. I am getting pissed with people and duh, myself, whenever I see signs of characteristics of people that I am unhappy about. Firstly bitching, okay I am not a fan of it, usually I just laugh and I'll forget about whatever that was bitched due to poor memory. Okay, I never really actively take part in any bitching sessions, but my presence there is accounted for. before you guys start pointing fingers at me on why I am participating in such things and why I didn't stop them, hold your tongues. I DID. I gave them my views on it, how it hurts people and breaks friendship blah blah blah...

But its like 1 VS. 28649692649625698263 people. Anyway, I don't really care if they listened or not, in the end, yeah, bitching it's still there. To people out there who hate bitching, ask yourself if you did it before? Hold up! Before you even start pointing fingers at others bitching their asses off, aren't you doing the same too? Just in a different way. It's damn fucking annoying when I see this kinda thing happening. Whe you think all has come to an end, someone just has to bring it up and voila! Bitching sessions during tea break again.

Then again, if you think on a more positive side, bitching is for at the brink of dying of boredom and seriously nothing better to do kinda people, feel happy for yourself! At least you don't fall under these categories. :D Just see it as a form of social activity, perhaps you won't take it so badly. I think the thing that hurts most is when the protagonist in these sessions is you. Aiyah, just take it in and fart out loh! Lol. Just kidding, okay maybe you can listen and see what they bitch about make sense, ask yourself did you really do this. Then with no hatred and ill-breed feelings, ask yourself again, in a very neutral sight, who's right and who's wrong? If you're right, EXPLAIN, give them food for thought, like why you do these blah blah blah... If you're wrong, APOLOGISE, change for the better and MOVE ON WITH LIFE.

I think on most occasions, people bitch cos' they care. Lol. I know what a weird explanation. But try hearing out my point of view. If they don't care, will they even bitch? They will just not give a damn about you and treat you like you're invisible. However, they bitched! Yeah, that means they care, and have thought about you and your actions. Hahahhaa! Reasonable eh?

Another thing, people, can we be more straightforward with each other. In a nicer way, for me. Not everyone has to go through verbal abuse to know that other people are caring for them. I believe there are different methods catered for different types of people. So stop classifying everyone as the same as you. Oh yeah, when you are straightforward to someone, make sure you can accept the same from them too, if not it just isn't fair for others.

I'm not talking about anyone, just giving a little insight, to state my point.

Just wants the world to be a happier place and eat beancurd tarts everyday.




Okay. Lol. I love my garlic-armpit boyfriend very much. :D

OH I'M S'WELL~ literally.

woke up this morning feeling weird. checked the mirror and to horror, my left eye was as swollen as a oversoaked kuay teow mee in soup. bad bad bad, i had to go for training, but i cannot even wear my contact lenses, called baby up and told him i couldn't go (I AM SO SAD ON THIS MATTER COS I WANTED TO SEE YOU. :( )

this is crazy, i found out my fingers were swollen too. now i had pudgy fingers and 'watch-too-much-porn' eye. ugh. to make matters worst i can't see my baby(s) - dance and boyfriend.

had to give RF 11th Anniversary Jam @ Zouk a miss. damn it. i was so looking forward to it. how i wish the swelling could go to my already ample boobs instead. maybe then i can fill up a DD cup bra and not look like i watched too much porn.

stupid stupid stupid.

guess what, a bug bit me. my mom was sweeping my room, when she chanced onto this huge bug, the moment she killed it, there was a mini explosion of blood from its insides (i am exaggerating.). my blood, my blood, my oh-so-sweet blood. DAMN YOU INSECT! thankfully it died. hopefully, i will not get bitten again cos it's still hurting like mad.

i'm contemplating on visiting a doctor. i mean, it's just a bite right? okay, if i ever die of dengue or whatever kind of serious disease, you guys will probably know why. me and my indecisiveness.

hahaha.

no wonder kaiwen wants me as a mistress instead of a wife, cos i don't value my life. hur hur hur. break my heart into a gazillion pieces. so if i see a doctor can i be your wife? LOL.

whatever, this post is making me feel even more down than ever.

i wanna see youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Advertorial: GEMS 4: Fairy Our Tale

hello! it's been ages since i've last blogged. I have been super busy these days, preparing for GEMS 4: Fairy Our Tale.

People from all over, please do come and support alright. This time it will be a different kind of production, not just any dance concert, uh-huh uh-huh, we'll be doing a musical!!! Yeah baby~ There will be acting(duh, TPDE is full of drama-mama(s) and drama-papa(s). LOL); dancing; and cheese! HAHAHA. Cheesiness is on of TPDE'sstrong points :D. Don't worry, it'll be a good show, with all the amount of hardwork and time we have been putting, it'll be awesome. So people, please come and support alright! Details below!

TPDE Presents GEMS 4: Fairy Our Tale

Date: 3rd or 4th April(its a friday and saturday, please choose any day. :) )

Time: 7.30pm onwards (go early to get good seats cos its free seating!)

Venue: TP Auditorium 1

Ticket: $15 (email me at: samansarii@gmail.com for tickets or text/call my mobile!)

Tickets will be confirmed once you hae made payment, must pay first ah!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. It's our policy to ensure that all tickets sold has been recorded :) Hope you guys can understand! Oh by the way, there will be ticket sales this Friday, anyone interested can PM me before friday! :)

PLEASE DO COME AND WATCH ALRIGHT! Ryan and Gin from O School are our main choreographers and there are some student/student-choreographer items. Remember to support!! Show some love for dance and love for us :D

anyway, just a camwhore session of myself for you guys out there. it's taken before my last ladies night with my flygirls and the night where i drank alot. LOL.





enjoy :)

went to catch My Bloody Valentine 3D with xiaoqi, jobei, kwzheng just now. all i can say is that movie is bloody stupid. lol. it's so obvious such cases will not happen naturally. kinda regret for wasting my precious $10 on it, i would seriously rather watch Push, hear it's a good movie. will update you guys soon! :)

peace out~

a stupid life

things have been not going smoothly for me. life is unfair, so unfair. i'm already not beautiful nor am i smart, and now my life is filled with obstacles that i have to overcome no matter what.

first things first, i really hate myself. i hate myself for not being able to forgive myself; for hiding things inside of me and just for being too harsh on myself. i wonder my past 'relaxed life' phase, was it just to run away from my own demands or me being truly laid-back? i told myself countless times that people make mistakes, and so do i. but somehow forgiving others is so much easier than forgiving myself. i will stupidly think of all the inconvenieces that i caused to others and just fail to look on the brighter side that it is an opportunity to learn. i am a stupid girl, stupid stupid girl.i don't know why i think this way. people say i think too much blah blah blah, but if i don't think i feel that my life is floating around so aimless and confused. i have no direction to head to and i just repeat the vicious cycle over again.

all i need is a self-esteem booster. i know all these are supposingly self-motivated, but i am so fucking weak-willed, it kills me. if i can choose i wanna live my life battling with others on the dance floor, somehow i will be able to adopt a different persona and am completely different. i really hate my fucked up self. it is sickening to the max. *stabs self 1000000000000 times* all i can say is i hav really great friends who often ask what's wrong when they see me looking like shit, really thank them for their concern, it is also beacuse of them that i feel happy most of the time, a major distraction frommy alone time filled with evil, disgusting thoughts on myself.

my family is... i don't know, i can't seem to find any words. we are like calefares in each others lives. don't talk much, don't see each other much(except when i'm back early.). i cannot seem to express my trus feelings at home, thus the close-up feel i always have. i wanna say, but i'm afraid that i will hurt them you know. it's so disturbing. i have been keeping this major secret from them since wednesday. I am still deciding whether or not to say, i don't wanna hurt them or make the atmosphere at home gloomy again. however this snippet of information is vital to the family. i am so confused and torn on what to do. i hate this feeling. argh help me.

i feel really sorry to my mum. we had a major arguement last night and i was banging the doors and feeling damn pissed. spoke to her rudely and just feel like smashing every other item on the floor. i hate having fights, it just makes me more pissed and not able to control my emotions. i wish i could speak to her calmly and talk things through. some times i really don't understand mothers. they want you to do soooooooooo many things at one time. i ain't no superhero, i can't do it in 2 minutes you know! imagine your mum asking you to eat and bathe, one after another! what the hell! how to?! then scold me for wasting her time cos i am taking too long... say i don't help out with housework, but every time i do, you will say it's not clean or i;m a useless helper. putting me down with words time and again, then do you think i will still offer my help? sometimes i did try to change my bad habits, like now, i seldom fall asleep with the lights on already and you don't remember it. and when i do once in a blue moon, you will say, tell you so many times already, you still don't listen! ARGH! okay okay, everything is just my fault.

and then my boyfriend comes into the picture, okay he's been real nice. i like any other human being, need time to sort out my stinking thoughts before saying. it is not because i intentionally avoid you, it is more of that i am afraid of saying the wrong things and it might hurt you. anyway, all my problems which are not related to him will somehow end up being related and making both parties pissed. you know some times people just need a listening ear, not someone to argue with when they are down and weary? i try my best to give you that at times, like console for awhile before i get annoyed and start correcting you. lol. it's tough, but i did try okay!

people are like that, they talk to much and listen too little. ask yourself, are you like that too? does it kill for you to try and listen to what others have to say. okay at times when they try, mid-way through the other parties conversation we start trying to form our own ideas and thoughts on the matter in our head. JUST LISTEN! okay i admit, i too have the tendency to interuppt, most of the time is because i will forget what the person say, then i scared i cannot remember what i thought. lol. but i will listen when i know it is important and when i know that person is genuinely caring for me.

okay, i still feel shitty and arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
feel like wasting my life being an alcoholic.
righttttttt.
peace out.

:)

yay i get to waltz with ryan! (meiqi don't kill me.)
LOL.

waltz is like so fun so fun! the fun part is when all the couples are in their own world and banging every other couple around them. hahaha! somehow just now when we were learning we look like in a social dance class at a community centre!!! LOL.

i have a question for ballroom dancers though, does your lower back ache after waltzing? mine does! and of cos the arms and neck too, so not used to the frame. LOL.

okay, everyone who is reading this, GUESS THE SKETCH NOW!!

Zoology: Trip to visit Kaiwen's friends :)

hey hey hey.
we = baby and i, went to the zoo on friday, after which i got sick. lol.

it was a really fun and interesting date, bimbo royston says next time the whole TPDE should visit the zoo together. yeah, i bet we would be so fascinated with hanging balls and red penises. hahaha. we saw a lot of things there. one memorable one would be we saw two giant tortoises (the biggest ones in the zoo) mating. LOL. the sound was terrible!!! according to iris, when we showed her the video, it sounds like a snore. hopefully my baby can load in on youtube so that i can put it here!! :)

the other memorable one would be, we saw a giant orang utan that looks fake. i swear, we thought it was fake, till my boyfriend started 'disturbing it' and it suddenly fidget!! scare the shit outta me, and of cos i managed an audible "AHHHHHHHH!".

okay pictures below!

my chest has been contracting badly and i'm afraid of stretching it, in the case of me not being able to control my heartbeat. :(

p.s happy 4th month :)