hEy.. n0t feelin really well rite n0w.. t0day really sucked big time.. well i m like already so stressed from the exams, i couldn't concentrate... feelin really weird, like somethin has g0ne wrong... bryan started tellin me about some stuff, he confused the hell outta me, after he finished say, my boday began to shiver... i went c0ld, and my b0dy was sweating like mad, my head went blanked for a moment i sto0d up, wanting to get away, i fell onto the fl0or... at that m0ment, i saw pat's nick, about jasmine... hMm.. i duNn0 wat to say... felt really hurt, mayb he's jus using me to forget ab0ut her... i dunn0... felt really confused, plus bryan's sayin ab0ut wh0m i dunno who is he.. makes my head spin m0re... my body was raging h0t... i c0uldn't take it anym0re i broke down crying... i huddled in a corner, hugged myself & started prayin to god, tell him that i'm ok... I am ok... But the more i pray, the symptons seem to get w0rse... My head spun thoughts about bryan, pat & that shivering... i felt so darn cold..... needed to hug somethin to keep me warm desperately... talked to him, he didn't wanna tell me anythin.. saw his nick again, all those mushy nicks, were they for her? not me... mayb he nv really had feelins for me at all... i dun wanna think about anythin le... my head hurts.... my heart hurts even m0re, i dunno y i wan to put myself int0 this state, i could hav br0ke up with him & suffer n0 more.. but i can't help it, i really l0ve him... mayb i sh0uldn't bah... cos he's not treatin me as a gf either... i dunn0, really need my frens rite n0w... haix... sick.....

blastin' Avril Lavigne's - Don't tell me

You held my hand and walked me home
I know
Why You gave me that kiss it was something
like
this that made me go oh oh
You wiped my tears
Got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough
To take up some of my love
Gosh it's so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that
Girl who gives it all away e yeahoh
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to
you
this ti-e-i-i ime
Did you think that that there was something
else gonna do
And cry-y-i-y-i
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way-eyeah
Don't think that your charm and the fact
that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants
I'll have to kick your ass
and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop
Thought I liked you a lot but I'm really upset
(im really upset)
So get out of my head

Get off of my bed
Yeah, thats what I said
Did i not tell you that I'm not like that
Girl the one who throws it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to
you
this ti-e-i-i ime
Did you think that there was something else
gonna do
and cry-y-i-y-i
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way-eyeah
This guilt trip that you put me on
Won't mess me up i've done no wrong
Any thought of you and me have gone away
e-yeah-e-yeah-e-yeah-e-yeahh
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to
you
this ti-e-i-i ime
Did you think that there was something else
gonna do
then cry-y-i-y-i
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way-eyeah
you're better off that wayyy
im better off along anyway