Went to City Harvest Church today with Gin and Xuehui and their cell group members.
You can say that I learnt alot after today's prayer.
After yesterday's breakdown, I finally understood what Gin was trying to explain to me.
I have a past that I need to forgive unconditionally and also a future to focus and embrace.
It is time for me to let go of the past and head into 2008 with a fresh start.
I realised, I seemed to depict myself living in 2007.
I have yet to move on from that amazing year.
God gave me many great things in 2007.
I have amazing buddies, dance experiences and an above average school grade.
This year, instead of living in my cage, I am going to step up and experience more things God has in store for me.
I do not want to whine, "Oh how I wish I can go back in the past."
I want to smile and say "I am looking forward to tomorrow.".


To all my friends who have shown concern for me before and after my breakdown.
And whenever I have problems, thank you.
Sorry forlying all these while, I am sensitive yet insensitive.
I crave for care whenever the time of the month is coming or I will just push you away.
I hate waiting for people, it just pisses me off. Cos' I feel like the whole world is condemning me. LOL.
But people can wait for me though. HAHAHAHHA.

Bei, Andreas, Iris, Kat and Kaiwen; I never told you guys this, but most of the time when we hang out, I feel very very very happy. :)

Erina, Ham, Chee, Esther and Try; you guys really save my ass during tutorials and lectures. Without you all, I think I would have quit school a long time ago.


To my mother who I have also felt this strong sense of resentment,
I want to forgive you for all those hurt you have caused me, dampening my spirits, causing both of us and the family so much pain.
I cannot say that I will forget, but I will forgive.
Cos you are my mother afterall.
Due to pride I never really had a chance to say this to both you and Dad, I love you guys alot.
More than anything.
So please do not claim that I do not love you, ask yourself this have you ever once said that you loved me too?


To my annoying as hell sister.
Actually most of the time I enjoy your company. :)

To everyone out there who is reading this,
Forgive the past and embrace the future!
God bless.