All time low

Why are these thoughts running through my head?
Thoughts of giving up on You.
Thoughts of You not giving me enough.

I feel frustrated, angry and tired of always begging for it.
Am I not ready? Am I not good enough?
What am I working so hard for then?

I wish I can say goodbye to everything.
But I know, even when I am gone, nobody will care.
Not even You.
I am so irreplaceable that You have to think of me this way.
I am tired...