How much is Forever?

Just when I thought my mentor was gone, you walked into my life with funny antics.

God's blessing.

Friends forever. :D

When you cried, all that overcome me was guilt for hurting you.

Thank you for all the feelings. :) Love you.

Our last family trip in 5 or more years?

I want to earn enough to bring you guys out of Asia. :)

Dad, when I was fat and ugly, you embraced me.

When I was tired and battered, you teared for me.

When I was, happy and jubilant, you never left my side.

Thank you.

After reading The Time Traveller's Wife, My Sister's Keeper and the news of Melissa Toh, I question myself to - How much is Forever? We all live in a world that comes to an end some day, maybe not now, not 2 months later or 5 years down the road. Somehow, the world that is said to come to a standstill is degenerating slower than we can see that predicted day. We all leave first. To where? I don't know, some people say we become ghosts, some say we disappear, but I would like to believe that we go into Heaven. Into God's arms.

When I read these books, I feel immature, childish, stupid for worrying about that zit on my face, to being insecure about my weight - resulting in me shutting myself out from the world that is changing constantly. The books taught me an important lesson, what is there to life if you don't love and give? I guess loving people in your lifetime can be the greatest gift on Earth besides giving. I know those with broken hearts are gonna curse me to the max now, but perhaps we are just loving wrongly?

I remembered once in Cellgroup, Kenny talked about love, about how We - each and every single one of us are always desperately finding love with other people who don't love us. For example, you have a family, wonderful husband, and two lovely children. Yet you are constantly out there, trying to get people to likfe you, be it from your boss, colleagues or even the pantry lady. All these efforts that you have put into, if directed to your family back home, wouldn't you reap greater results? Your family are people who already and have been loving you for so long and yet humans, greedy as ever crave for more.

I am not saying that you cannot go out there and make friends or be nice to people, I am just saying why should we try so hard on people who don't care about us and put these efforts into people who do.

With this, I would love to thank my wonderful but at times annoying family & boyfriend, for never giving up on me, my friends that I met in dance who have seen the worst and best of me and the people I met from oschool/church/cellgroup. Thank you for letting me learn so much.

May God bless everyone.