Sometime i just feel like killing the sadistic part of myself.
Just die Sam.
Goodbye.

Back from camp.
Learnt alot.
Heard alot.
Need to improve alot.

Please help me.

When Gin asked 'What is Dance?' to me,
I replied life, passion.
When I thought about it more,
I realised its not that simple.
My love for it is greater than passion,
greater than having a boyfriend.
I am even willing to go against my parents for it.
It might seemed like I am rebelling,
but if you take Dance away from me,
I don't know if I can survive.

O School Recital X'mas Party this Sunday.
And I haven't gotten a gift yet.
God just bless me.
All I want for Christmas this year is Love.

Wee~
Went to O School yesterday.
I was pretty bored initially, so i started help Jas out at O Cafe.
Pretty soon, when the customers died down, so did my enthusiasm.
So I went to disturb Gin who was happily viewing videos on Youtube.
My bad she made me show her the dancehall choreography I did for MJC.
I could not remember the whole thing, I only managed to remember the slapping move.
Pretty soon we started sessioning in the orange studio.
HAHAHA.
It was hell fun.
She taught and told me more about dancehall and we started doing moves we saw on Youtube.
Example like the head stand plus butt shake move.
Heh, we had fun, it looked pretty funny and we were laughing like mad inside the studio.
Soon, Razmy came back from Funan and we asked him to do it too.
OH MY!
HE CAN DO YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
Lol. So we sessioned for awhile more before heading down to Code Edge Dance Battle at Zouk.
Eh, it was alright, Zaihar was hitting the beats that night and there were tonnes of hot babes.
I was screaming like crazy for Joey when she did the popping segment with Michael.
Wow, you should have seen her, can tell she was really enjoying it.
Anyway, i'll be away for the 18th and 19th, dance camp.
So see you guys after that!!! :D

Hello people, I'm back.
Enough of the emoing. My tests are over! Wee~
Anyhow, yesterday was my first time going for Fbod's training.
Man, I really like their warm up and the system there.
It's very organized and you can tell there's alot of respect given to the seniors by the juniors.
Also, people there are really friendly and fun.
In all i enjoyed myself so much :)


I really hope TPDE people will step up.
I feel that discipline in TPDE is slacking very much and we ought to learn from the FB people.
I can feel that they're close yet t when it comes down to discipline, every single one of them will control themselves.
Bascially in terms of noise level and attention.
It's pretty amazing to see it cos in TPDE it is not like that.
I guess I would join them for sessions on Friday more.
To improve and to share :)

Oh yeah one very embarrassing thing happened to me though.
While i was doing my reggae freestyle, I so happen to do a move that required alot of pants-flexibility. Lol.
And guess what, my pants split.
I felt that I didn't do to my potential.
Oh well, it's funny though.
What's more I have a feeling they thought I was a retard.
I covered my butt and ran off to sit down.
Ugh.
Please forget about this.

I feel real shitty.
I did so badly for O School Recital.
Yes, I know I am hard on myself.
I can't help it I'm like that.
MJC concert and mid-semester tests are coming ahead.
I'm just so stressed out, I want to cry every night.
Or perhaps bang my fucking messed up head on the wall.

I wonder if I am suited to be a dancer.

Okay people.
Tomorrow's the big day.
I hope I will do well, execute my movements and follow the music.
Most importantly, remember my steps!!!!
God please save me.