I feel a little awkward now,
when I'm talking to you.
Sometimes I avoid you,
but I'll still be looking out for you secretly.
I can't believe how stupid I am.
Love makes people stupid.
Period.
I have decided,
I ain't gonna give up,
I'm gonna hang on.
I've learnt an important lesson today,
to quit procrastinating.
So if you ever feel something for me,
can you give a sign?
It will kill my nervousness,
and perhaps I will be brave enough to make the first move.
Just don't freak out and avoid me.
That's the worst outcome I expect.

Work is robbing me of my social life with TPDE.
I know its selfish of me to want them to make time for me,
but when you're away doing something repetitive for the past week,
you can't help but think of your friends right?

People who brings laughter, joy, smiles.
I'm yearning for that,
I feel I have not really had a long talk with my goodfriends face to face for so long.
I miss you people bad.
I have been reassuring myself,
its okay,
we will have time with each other after work is done.
Hopefully. :)

Have not been dancing for two weeks,
dancing as in going for classes,
taking in new choreography.
I feel so uncomfortable all over.
Thank God this week is ending soon.
I can go for classes and prepare for the Sean Kingston show.
Yay.
I love Jas,
if not for her I wouldn't have this opportunity.
Thanks babe, I love you!!!

I tried telling you,
but it ain't working like I want to.
Perhaps I'll just sit on it.
Maybe my feelings will die down,
then our friendship would not be ruined. :)

Sorry people, for being selfish once again.
Argh..... tomorrow need to climb the "mountain" again.
JIA YOU SAM, ONE MORE DAY!

Friendster has been a bitch.
Not allowing me to upload photos.
Anyway, these are from eons ago during concert rehersals.
Was feeling stressed, so Nicole decided to get my sorry ass to Zouk.

I think the time to confess will arrive soon.
And I know you would be shocked,
but I just want to tell you how I feel.
I just hope that we would still be friends no matter what happens.

Just got back from work.
It's a killer, but the pay is good.
I think.


I don't know if its a relief or not, now that we're talking.
I kinda feel this love is one-sided.
How great Sam.

I don't know if I should join K.O night.
I was thinking of it, and I decided to list out the benefits and problems to overcome.
Benefits:
-Gain experience
-Overcome my fears
-Think less about you

Problems to overcome:
-TIME.

Time is too short for me right now.
I have plenty of things that I have/want to do.
1. Work
2. Prepare for showcase at MOS
3. Spend time with ex-schoolmates.
4. Go out with dope gang.
5. Hang out with you.
6. Prepare for K.O night.
7. Go for dance lessons.

God please give me faith to carry out whatever I planned to do with confidence.






I miss you tonnes.
Get back to me soon?

Should i stay or should i go?
Maybe I will just give this love up, just like the others.
Live in solitary confinement.
Why do we keep missing one another??
Is it cos we're not fated to be together?
Or are you secretly hating me?

I hope that you would call me.
Yeah, a simple phone call would do.
If it happens,
I'll make a move.
Awaiting for the coming week.
I know I'll be able to see you,
what's more perhaps,
do what I can to express how I feel for you.
If you're reading this and have no clue,
you're really special in my heart.
Thanks for being there whenever you can,
thanks for making me smile,
thanks for talking sense to me,
thanks for appreciating me like I am important,
thanks for just being who you are.
You don't know this, but I would be very lonely without you!
:)





Bubbly - Colbie Caillat
I've been awake for a while now
You got me feeling like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Watched our concert videos again.
Hilarious shit.
Nicole will proably say "How many times are you going to watch it?!"
Gazillion perhaps.
I don't know if there's such a word, but I really miss those days of sweating it out together.




Will you return these feelings?
It's so hard to predict.
Oh I don't know what to do.

Why do I think that I'll have no chance?
I'm not confident in myself, neither am I in your feelings.
What should I do?
It's you, it'd you, it's you,
that I think about.

I wanna night cycle with the dope gang again!!!!

Don't take too long to say
"I love you" to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you.

Turn around to say goodbye,
with each and every word that passes by,
like a distant memory,
and time keeps slipping away,
and time will turn to grey,
and time will be the one who holds you down,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,

And I want you by my side,
and I need you here tonight,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
and in the end it hits you hard,
please tell me you'll be strong

I'm so in love with this song. Heard it somewhere, but I cannot remember exactly where.
Just wanna say this to you.

Some pictures from the concert.


Jasmine and I


OYC and I


Yanying and I


Gin and I


Andy, OYC, Yanying, Jas and I


Pangyang and I


A pimp. HAHA.


The man who ispired many, Ryan and I.


This picture was supposed to be Kaiwen and I only, see all these extra people! HAHAHA.


Sexy Meiqi.


Mannequins, or at least trying to be.


Sweet dreams impersonation. :)


Us and the production crew.

I love you guys plenty!

Wow it has been an exhilarating two weeks and TPDE Gems 3 if finally over.
I can't believe time just flahed across so quickly,
its like just yesterday I have completed my exmas and am heading for training.
These two weeks have been a rollercoaster ride for my mind and body.
I have been fighting against myself so hard, depite being on the verge of giving up conutless of times.
The me, who is hlf-hearted, lazy and discouraged.
I guess everyone will have this phase once in a while,
but I am really thankful to have people around me that believes in me and have faith in my abilities.
For that, I truly love you guys alot and I thank God for brining me to them.

My body was on the verge of failing me, but every night, I pray.
I pray for healing, not for myself, but for everyone in TPDE.
Hoping that those wth injuries will be able to dance without pain and those sick to overcome their illness as soon as possible.
Luckily God listened to my prayers, though not all has been healed, but they managed to go through this event without harm.

I really want to thank Gin and Ryan for their words.
It has changed my way of thinking and has greatly influenced me into becoming a better dancer and person.
I want to thank Nicole for always being there when I am down, and whenever shit happens, I know you'll remedy my emotions.
I want to thank my parents for making the effort to come down and support me.
I want to thank TPDE for being there, and letting my know such awesome people in my life.
I love you guys plenty.


This love might be serious.
I don't know you could say I am afraid.
Who do I have to have such feelings?

My soul mate has been very evil to me for the past few days.
It has been restricting me in all different kinds of ways.
I have been struggling and struggling in this relationship ever since January.
I don't know how long will I take to overcome you.
Why can't we work together?
Why can't my mind take in all of you?
Why are you drifting away from me?
Has the love burned out and disappeared?
Is this going to end soon?
I am not giving up.
I have given my all to you.
Please don't bail on me now.