Acceptance of a 20 year old.

Some things in life I just have to accept.
I have to accept that I am not pretty and I am fat.
That's why I will not be able to get commercial dance jobs blah blah shit.

I have to accept that I am not a good dancer.
I have neither talnt or skill,
that's why I have to keep working harder than everyone else.

I have to accept that I lost touch with my secondary school friends.
I know it is impossible to go back into the circle again, when they don't even bother to invite you,
but that is how they choose this friendship to be,
and I can't do anything about it.

I have to accept that certain friends should be kept,
and not all.
if I keep giving my all to all of my friends.
I will be drained like a dried fish.

I have to accept that my family is broke,
and I have to work doubly hard for expenses and to support this family.

I have to accept that I am getting old,
and I will be soon plagued with countless illnesses,
so I gotta keep my health in shape.

I have to accept that I am backsliding,
and God is angry with me, no matter how many times a day I pray,
cos I haven't been going to Church or Cellgroup.

I have to accept this depression inside of me,
and see a psychiatrist soon.