Turning 20 in 3 days.

Can't believe I am hitting the big 2 soon,
in fact every time I think of it, I feel damn grateful to my parents.
Raising me for 20 years is definitely not easy,
I am such a difficut child, must be hard on them.

Haha!

Mum, Dad, I thank you guys from the bottom of my heart and I love you to bits!!!!!!!!!!

I am in a dilemna...

I want to Dance, but I need Money.
Dance = Money.
Why?
Classes, travelling expenses, food, drinks etc etc etc.
The mountain just builds on a single thing called MONEY.

Selfish as I may be,
I want a lot of things despite being contented.
When you have this, you desire other things that you have yet to get.
Then, jealousy, hurt, anger starts forming under the branch of greed.
It is a vicious cycle that I am still trying to get rid of.
All these worldly things, are just superficial, materialistic and replaceable.


Somehow I don't feel all psyched up for my 20th birthday.
I wonder is it because I feel old? LOL.
Or is it due to the pile of work that I have had on hand for sooooo long. (Thanks tutors/lecturers!)

Maybe cos' I just am not expecting anything.
I don't wanna expect, cos I always get disappointed. :)
Like expect my Dad to buy me an iPhone 3GS (HAHA!) or Kaiwen to give me a diamond ring (totally cannot imagine.).

Okay, I bet some people like... lol, will think that I am ridiculous and stupid and will start scolding me.
Can't a girl dream?
Sometimes I really like it when I am sleeping, at least all those things give me an opportunity to wake up from. :)

I just what a girl wants is for someone to be supportive of her.
Someone that says 'I'll make you happy, your entire life.'.
A man that sheds his tear, lets down his guard and get rids of his ego for her.
:)

I JUST WANT TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE!
okay i gotta get on with reality now.
sorry for all these fragmented posts.
just writing whatever that comes to my mind.