Gone

i'm very lost.
everything's just going away from me, every single thing.
either stolen or snatched away.

i seriously think my parents made a mistake by having me.
my existence is not needed.
i can't bring them or anyone happiness.

and somehow my greatest saviour is only Him,
whom i can't seem to cry out to.

should i go away for long?
somehow i wish someone would just ask me to take a long trip away with him/her.
perhaps then i will learn to cherish my existence in my hometown.

i don't like being sensitive,
but is it a crime to be?
i was constantly a listening ear to your sorrows.
i just wished you could be mine too.

anyway, i don't think i can go to the graduation trip to phuket.
parents say:
-its expensive
-not worth it
-monsoon season (tsunami alert!!!)
-blah blah blah

If no one wants to go, shall i embark on a solo trip?
Taiwan, Japan, Korea or Hongkong?

sigh.
if only you could be here right now.