goodbye

i just really want you to come after me.
and tell me that you need me.
but you just gave it all up.
i lost hope too.
i hate relationships with broken fragments inside.
it just shows how vulnerable it can be.
and you chose to have it that way.
so now, it's over for us.

this shows that this 5 months i am nothing to you.
just another girl.
okay i am saying this based on how i feel.
right/wrong? i don't know.
but the actions you make, make me feel this way.

i can't sleep.
the insomnia kicks in again.
i really loved you, but you choose to do it this way.
i can't do it anymore.
you can do your way, whatever you want.
i rather escape, take the easy way out and not look back.

all i wanted, like every girl, is for the guy to come running after you.
give you a big hug, say you are sorry and tell me that you love me.
but you just walked away.
GO HOME. FUCK IT.
i don't like to keep things hanging, i just want every to resolve so that the next day you wake up you won't have to worry about things.

so what now?
i hae no idea.
maybe i am really single afterall.

you know, if you came after me.
i will jolly well listen you.