happy birthday not.

this song just sums up everything.

Too many times, I have wondered
What all the tryin' is for.
You come around, I feel so down
I'm gonna drown
'Cause I know that you've fallen short

But do you know?
It doesn't change
The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day
'cause I know, that I all I want is what you got.
All I want, is what you got.

Too many times, I have wanted
To turn around and walk away
Knowing deep inside, I can't provide
What I need from you, anyway

Do you know?
Doesn't change
The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day
'Cause I know
That all I want is what you got
All I want is what you got
Tell me that I wanna go
But I wanna stay
Tell you that I wanna go
But I wanna stay
Tell you that I wanna go
But I wanna stay
I wanna stay I wanna stay I wanna stay
But I know I'm gonna lose myself this way
I wanna stay I wanna stay I wanna stay
But I know I'm gonna lose myself this way

Do you know?
Doesn't change
The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day
'Cause I know all I want is, what you got
All I want is what you got

But
this
Romantic
is
all I got

unappreciated. unloved. unwanted. unaccepted.
do i really deserve a life like this?
when will someone start coming after me?
no one did in my life.
i am replaceable.
when i think of this,
i just feel like slittling my wrist and drown in my own skin.
i'm sorry mum and dad.