Tuesday, September 16, 2008

something that irks you, especially so when people start talking...

chin and i met up around 11ish in school
to choreograph our Hiphop item.
we spent like 15mins in the dance,
and the rest of the time trying to get our tutting steps right.
i think it took like 45mins?
LOL.
i know that, you know that, i know that, you know that, you know that, i know.
song is they're everywhere by izza kizza.
i swear it sounds like some jamaican reggae singer.
yay, at least we have some kinda idea in our head.

headed to Macs for lunch.
while walking, this bunch of small birds beside us,
started flying real low.
it scared the hell outta me.
i was like hiding behind chin,
asking her to save me.
i don't know if i am scared of their droppings,
or feathers.
perhaps a combination of both.

headed back to school to meet joey and mel to choreograph for reggae.
met tim, keiths and nel on the way there.
they were like literally blocking the whole of 77th street(whatever Avenue, it is called),
using the reflective glass there.
met joyce and badd at sports complex,
choreographed a bit,
talked a lot.

went 85 market with the whole group of people i met today,
excluding keiths, he went to meet a friend.
had fun talking, eating and basically just having fun.
HAHAHA.
nelson reckons i had fun cos he was there.
ugh please loh,
i think it was his bird friends that made my day fun.
hahaha.

anyhow, there is like tonnes of drama going on now.
i just feel that people assume too much.
and they don't even bother to listen to the other side.
especially so when they have already taken a side.
i don't really know the full story,
but base on experiences i believe everyone should have a chance to explain themselves,
say what they feel and know.
i think it is ridiculous to just hear one party and make assumptions based on that given amount of information.
also, a blog is meant for people to express their thoughts and feelings,
as owners of our blogs we are given the right to say what we want.
andrea, ryan's wife once told me,
"blogs are meant for people to express and for other to read, so what's the point of making it private?".
so true.
i just feel so sad for someone right now,
somehow i feel that people are always trying to protect and defend themselves.
can't they just accept that they are in the wrong?
and that they should change?
the problem is usually they think they are right.
so how can we help them?
i don't know.

i really don't care how people see me now,
the seniors,
the juniors,
people from my batch.
cos i know that ultimately,
God will be judging me,
and i only care about that.
people can judge,
but all they see is the surface.
God is the only one who knows what i am thinking,
why am i doing this,
and whether it is right or wrong.

it is really tiring sometimes to go through all these,
and these are the things that make me feel like quitting.

avoiding,
you're still not talking.
what do i have to do to make you start talking?
sometimes i really don't understand you.
maybe i should just forget about rekindling the friendship.
i lead my life, and you lead yours.
is this what you want?
can you give me an answer?
i really feel like i have lost an important friend,
and it hurts.





super old school pic; taken at rinna's chalet
joyce looks innocent,
iris blur,
serene chubby,
kat looks like an ahlian,
bei looks mature HAHA,
and i look fat.
oh it's been long since i blogged about na-baka chan,
she said i looked hot in my short hair,
honey you're probably the only one who thinks that way!!!
hahaha.
i miss you babe!
when can we meet up again????

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