crappy day! w0w~ i br0ke a rec0rd... first timE sp0rts day i wEnt h0me with0ut a prizE.... *s0bSob* i miss him al0t... but i wan 2 learn h0w to contr0l le... i still remember my new year's resolution - to try n n0t miss him s0 muCh... heart pain... but surface strong, i jus try n0t 2 thinK ab0ut it bah... but then h0r.... I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM *sighs* wish hE c0uld automatiCally find mE.... everytimE i muS searCh 4 hiM dE.... n0w hiS turN lE bah.... t0day sp0rts day ah... i run likE shit sia... c0uld hav donE betteR... but my lEgs is BREAKIN!! yEs, literally breakin... Had gastrics... didn't kn0w it w0uld hurt tt muCh... Plus, he wasn't there, n that hurt the m0st... Well, but we had an " excursion " 2day... We ( Ben, Nick, Lydia, Ah ma, Zhen, Suz, Bryan n mE ) went to Sentosa... Went 2 Siloso Beach n swam in the water.... boy oh boy!! the water was great... the co0lin sensation on our sunburnt skins wEre likE ice packs co0lin the sun!!! bryan is really retarded... he lay on the sand n refused to go in the water... only mE,suz n zhEn went int0 the p0ol... shi0k! lolxXx then i had ballet, argh... my legs r aching like mad!!! I was thinkin about this thing on the way h0me... Do u believe in dreams? On wednesday nite, i dreamt that pat suddenly came up to me n gave me a peck on the lips.... I still remember even though i was slpin, my heart was beatin damn fast... it was as if tt incident really did happen!!! Then on thurs... pat gave me a flyin kiss c0s he was so happy tt he need n0t do the gr0up presentation!! Everythin is g0in crazy... i dunn0 wat 2 d0... jus miss him... n prays 2 dear g0d tt hE doen't fliRt anym0re.... -l0vepat4eva-