ytd i didn't wanna write anything inside here, cos i was to0 tired.. I guess I am the main pr0blem of everythin.. Every single freakin thing, that's why i decided to change.. I rather keep quiet le, cos everytimei say somethin, some1 will get hurt.. Ur always think this way, but do u guys watch ur mouths to0? Yes, hurt n rejection. It deprives ourselves from being vocal.. I dun care, i've already made this decision.. and i dun feel likE changin it.. Sometimes i think, I am tryin to pr0ve something that each of us have a different mindset on. Eg. I didn't wanna say my problems de... ur made me, i never even recall sc0ldin u guys and tt's wat pat t0ld mE, say i was unreasonable, i sc0lded them... mayb i did in a fit of anger, but i never wanted to say anything, so dun keep askin me to tell u guys stuff i dun wish to say, cos then later ppl will tell me that u guys r stressed out, tolerating my nuisance wat so eva... And for pete's sake, do ur really think ppl always give in t0 mE? no. they dun. get this clear in ur head. I work hard to get wat i want, others dun, they count on idiots like me to help them get somethin, then every1 will b happy.. Ppl always say, have u thought of others feelings when u say somethin, then i ask u hav u ppl thought of the things bef0re u tell others?? Dun come n say others first, try to change urself, it's u wh0 present this attitude that u wan to b treated this way.. I dunno i jus really need someone wh0 can understand me rite nw... someone i can talk to, can intrepret wat i'm trying to mean, not the other way r0und... haix.. me n pat can say our relationship ok le... but then i guess he will nv like me as muCh... n i dun blame him, life's like this, accept it.Quite touching la... the things he said to me on Sun nitE, i was like so deeply moved, i cried in front of this stupid computer... I guess we will last bah... not f0rever... but for this period of time where many changes occurs... I won't say we will last till eternity... but i really appreciate that i have him n0w.. He will always b a part of the bitter sweet mem0ries i hav in my gr0win years, cos he was the onE wh0 really br0ught me int0 thinkiN, and caused mE 2 changE f0r the bettEr... Seriously, I am not sure whether I am doing the right thing now or not, I decide to take the path as quiet, simple and n0t as complicated as before.. Maybe then I would really find true happiness? Some stuff are really worth trying, cos u'll nv know the greatest outcome would be when u take a risk.. That's wat i'll b doing, risking my life, pat n i's relationship and L6's friendship.. I am going to be straightforward le.. no point hiding behind.. But my mouth will still be shut =) xcept when i smilE! =D lolxXx.. hmm... i guess my mum recieved the "hate" mail i sent her, she caused so much destruction and unrest in my life this year... Many problems resulted from her... sorRy guys... it's all my fault... my bad... haix... dunno wat to say lE... go0d nitE every1... -l0vealLofya-

blastin' *Fleetwo0d Mac - Songbird

Sonbird's Lyrics
For you, there'll be no more crying,
For you, the sun will be shining,
And I feel that when I'm with you,
It's alright, I know it's right
To you, I'll give the world
to you, I'll never be cold
'Cause I feel that when I'm with you,
It's alright, I know it's right.
And the songbirds are singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before.
And I wish you all the love in the world,
But most of all, I wish it from myself.
And the songbirds keep singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before, like never before.