time to say goodbye

today's such a weird day.
so many emotions,
so many thoughts.
useless thoughts,
wayward thoughts,
harmful thoughts.

met brian cheok the junior in cheers today.
cannot believe he actually did that!
i was in cheers,
and someone started calling "Samantha! Samantha!"
at odd intervals,
I was sure it was directing to me,
but I couldn't see who,
then I begin to assume that,
that person must be calling out to another Samantha.
i was so embarrassed cos i couldn't find the person so i walked to Kat(who was watching the whole scene) near the milk section.
then i told her about it,
before i realised,
brian was standing behind.
hahahaha.
kat reckons its childish,
but I think he's pretty funny,
to think of such a way to tease someone.






you can call me sensitive or what.
i just feel that the friendship circle has changed.
perhaps its cos we don't spend time much with each other anymore,
but i am sure that is not the case.
cast aside all the drama and outings,
there was something different then.
i don't know if its due to the fact that we are getting to know each other more then,
and are finding out stuff we never knew about each other.
now, everyone's true colour has surfaced.

its not that i don't enjoy being with you guys,
i really do.
in fact,
so much so that i would even sacrifice time for family with you people.
i just feel very non-existent in your lives.
lonely,
forgotten
and on the verge of dying.

i think i might disappear for awhile,
goodbye.