hurt

i'm very hurt by the things you say,
i thought we've changed,
learnt how to compromise with each other.
but i guess that side of you is still the same.
funny how the words we use hurt others so much.
i feel sad and disappointed cos i put alot of hope in this friendship that we have built through so much arguements before,
i thought you were nicer during the trip,
but somehow,
my hopes just plummeted today.
how can you ever think i was threatening you?
why would i do that?
i did not even think of that.
when you said that you felt like you were threatened,
it somehow stabbed my heart even more.
i felt that all the happiness in our friendship was sucked dry instantly.
i don't know how long it'll take for me to heal,
but such words just make me feel like closing up in my own world again.
it'll take time i guess,
it's not that i am sensitive or what,
but imagine after patching things up with someone you love,
then a major disappointment hits you in the face again.
you just lose hope.
initially, i still have thoughts of proving to you i can,
now it's like why should i do it for someone who has hurt me time and time again?
sometimes i feel that you can hurt others, but others can't hurt you.
sigh.
makes me wanna cry again.
it's not that i said i am right or what,
i am just expressing how i feel,
if you think whatever i said is trying to prove i am right,
then i really have nothing to say.
i am sorry that i am late.
bye.