Thursday, January 29, 2009

A SUPA LONG POST

okay i would like to start this post on a lighter note.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY (erin)NABAKA-CHAN!



knew this girl back in 2007,
we were in the same class during Year 1.
we somehow got stuck to each other most of the time,
and we enjoy venturing to ITAS to eat our YONGTAUFOO and DESIGN SCHOOL to eat MALAY FOOD!!!!
hahaha.
yeah, i missed those times, where we were so anti-social,
living in our two persons world.
heh.
but i'm really glad that i met her!
had so much fun during projects, hanging out, making fun of her and STRIPES from eons ago.
those were the days man.
though we don't talk much now,
and we hardly even hangout anymore,
i'm really glad that i have a friend like you!!
i miss you tonnes, ditch your music instrument sometime to hang out with meeeee~

P.S I still have the photo of your face close-up in my phone, it is 1/8 of my background picture!

have you actually wondered whether people notice the minor details?
the softness of your elbows?
the mole behind your ear?
girls if you managed to find a guy like that he's definitely a keeper.
attentiveness is a bonus n your personality,
taking note of small things and caring for them,
makes someone feel like they have been cared for.

okay i'm kinda distracted.
my lil' cousin, is shouting "Lame showx2!" to the Okto! Channel which she was watching.
hilarious.

anyway, i just haven't been feeling good these couple of days.
i hate this longing part.
why must God make us have such heart-wrenching feelings of desiring for something?
sometimes i realy don't understand.
kaiwen has been feeling frustrated about the constant disappointment from God.
he's been telling me how He doesn't answers his prayers, needs and He doesn't give him the opportunities he wanted.
i've been saying that better things will come his way, cos gin always says, when God doesn't gve you something, means that he has better things in store for you.

okay, i believed it, do not believe it, question it.

we will know this sat won't we?
i really hope he gets his prayers answered.
spark a new revelation in him,
give him opportunities to shine.
i know he has been working hard(i am not being effing bias, i saw it happen when i was lazy.),
just wished some good things in dance will happen to him.
been put down in dance,
hurt by dance,
frustrated by dance,
i just really hope something good will happen to him.
and he doesn't want me to pray for him.
-.-
ahhhhh.
God please make your presence known to him.
and also to reassure my wavering faith.

turning 19 in a few weeks time.
i just have a desire to disappear cos i bet no one will remember.
haaaaaaaah.
i should start psychoing myself now about my premonition of it.
i just wish that things will be better for me this year.
good things.
happy things.
i had enough of 2008,
those who knew what happened will know it is quite bad.
please please please GOOD THINGS IN MY LIFE INBOX ONLY!

for some people,
don't just think you are the only person with esteem issues,
people who appear strong can also have them,
instead they build a wall around them to protect their delicate ego.
so stop thinking that you are the only one suffering from it,
complaining and whining that you are not good enough is not going to help.
oh best of all, still can bitch about other people.
next time just think before you speak,
cos at times the words you use will show others the kind of person you are.

tonight i shall stop thinking and just friggin' sleep like a log.
hopefully,no dreams, NA-DAH!
i just want some peace.

by the way, thank you pangyang for talking to me last night,
even though you're irritating as hell,
you're still quite a nice guy on msn.
for you i shall say, GO FATTY SHEEP!

kat invited me to her place for dinner tonight.
sounds fun for a change!
but she's not texting me!!
hello kat!!! are you in wonderland???

CIAO~

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