Lonely in Gorgeous

At this point of time, I feel extremely burdened by so many circumstances. I felt that my freedom has been restricted, the freedom the write, say, do things that I want. People are always watching and commenting on it, that I don't mind. However, the do not confront me directly, ask me what is wrong, instead they ask someone else.

I feel so irritated at this point of time, is it my fault that they ask you? Should I say "DON'T ASK so and so" next time? So that you wouldn't be so perplexed about it? Is writing such short notes making a big hoo-ha over this issue? I don't think so. I don't have the power to stop people from asking, so I should just limit what I say? Hold back my feelings and emotions.

Frankly, I find it stupid to do so, but its giving you so much problems, I do not have a choice right? I long for the days where I can just not give a damn and write what I want. The freedom of writing, the freedom of speech. I wonder, at this point of time, can someone see eye to eye with me?

Everyone practically label it as my fault without bothering to hear from my side. They just see one side and go with it, never considering my feelings/thoughts towards the problem. Seriously, I do not know what to say to you guys, since I cannot control that behaviour. All I can do is lock up my blog and my profile, and let my close friends read only.

You say I am insensitive, then how about all the others?

Please spare a thought for my feelings.

Right now, I just feel everything is against me. I just have Revogue and nothing else. But thank god for them, they brighten up my day and make me happy. The only time I can say my true honest feelings and they will at least compromise and listen. Thank you girls, lets strive for our goal.


Lonely in Gorgeous from Paradise Kiss (anime)

I dashed out at 0 o’clock in the morning
I kicked the door open
My glass slippers shattered
And my dress tore, too

Hey, aren’t you shocked?
Even if I chased after you, you wouldn’t come
My tears overflow and I can’t run anymore…

It just might be jealousy… It’s-so-pain-ful…!!

“Lonely in Gorgeous” yeah…
Party night… I’m breaking my heart
I want you to find me immediately and embrace me
The headlights shine…where are you bad boy?

Wipe away my tears with the scarf of love
I can’t see anything
I want to scrape up stardust
And hurl it at you

Why do you care?
And yet you are only able to love yourself…
I just might be falling out of love… Is it for real…?!

“Lonely in Gorgeous” yeah…
Party time…won’t bury that
If you’re not here, then the world seems empty
I want to keep dreaming
“I miss you bad boy”
Please don’t shut me inside the glitter
Or I’ll break down

“Lonely in Gorgeous”I’m breaking my heart
Where are you bad boy?
“Lonely in party night”

“Lonely in Gorgeous”
I’m breaking my heart
I miss you bad boy
“Lonely in party time”

“Lonely in Gorgeous” yeah…
Party night…
I can’t laugh
I don’t need anything, just be by my side

“Lonely in Gorgeous” yeah…
Party night…
I’m breaking my heart

Inside of the box of glitter that you left behind
I embrace loneliness and I can’t move
I don’t need anything, just be by my side
Kneel down, look at me
And pledge your love